Sad but so true for some families.....

This is something I came across while researching Acid Reflux and when I read it I cried. I have come very close to feeling those emotions and I truly feel for this woman. No I have not hurt my son in anyway but I can now understand just how these things happen. It was a real eye opener for me. Hopefully it will help someone else.

Copyright 2006 by Dindy Robinson

THE CRYING THAT WON'T STOP FOREVER

BY DINDY ROBINSON

She's so beautiful! Everything I ever dreamed she would be. I love her so much, and she's mine to hold, to love, and to cuddle...

...Look at her, sleeping so peacefully. It's hard to believe that she's mine, that she came from me. So small, so helpless. So innocent. Everything is so new to her. Welcome to the world, my little one...

...What time is it? Two o'clock? She can't be hungry. I just fed her an hour ago. Maybe she's wet- no, her diaper's fine. Could be some air in her tummy, but I burped her. She's not cold. Oh, darling, what's the matter? Don't cry, it's all right. Mommy's here. Mommy'll take care of you. It's all right, little dolly. It's all right...

Back and forth...

Back and forth...

Back and forth...

...It seems as if I have been rocking forever. What time is it? Five o'clock already? I've been up all night! She's finally asleep. She looks so sweet when she's asleep. What a night! I wonder what her problem was. Maybe she just wanted some loving. Well, I'll put her to bed and see if I can catch a few hours of sleep myself...

...She's getting so much bigger, but she's still so helpless. I wonder why she cries so much. What am I doing wrong? Maybe she doesn't love me. Maybe I'm not taking good enough care of her. Maybe I should hold her more, but I don't see how I can. There are other things that need to be done.

Why didn't anybody tell me that babies cry so much? There she goes again. Maybe she'll stop if I'm quiet. No, she's getting louder. I'd better get her...

Back and forth...

Back and forth...

...Finally her eyes are closed. I am so tired; I could fall asleep in this chair. I think I'll try to put her down-oops, her eyes are open. Shit! Shh-hh, little love. You're all right...

...There, she's asleep again. Stand up very slowly. There are those eyes again! How does she know when I'm trying to put her down? She must be a mind reader! Let's try it again...

...Ah, there, I finally got her in the crib. Now to go to bed myself...

...I don't believe it! She's crying again! She was sound asleep! How can she do this? I know she's sleepy; she's been up for hours. There, there baby. You're okay...

...Nothing seems to work. Stop crying! I'm just as tired as you are!

...Back and forth...

...Back and forth...

...I need to calm down. She's just a baby...

...Back and forth....

...Back and forth....

...Back and forth...

...She's asleep, finally. Now I can go to bed. Poor thing, she must be miserable. And I am exhausted. Bed at last! But she keeps making noises. I hope that doesn't mean she's trying to wake up. She needs to stay down for a long time...