well... Im pretty sure its focus and stimulation based as I have several more than 2or3 addiction issues that i can turn to for stimulation. I am in Recovery and sober from alc. drugs, gambling,sex including with self,relationship seeking and working on lust everyday.

Most of these have been in my life since childhood early teens, doing very well realizing that my brain is just seeking stimulation hAVE physciatrist and phsycotherapist, Have alo Loved God all my life and certainly addictedto him too, have unkowingly been unable to control my impulses and compulsions for many years since childhood.Landing me in some pretty deep trouble.

I am sober almost 90 days on 70 mg of vyvance increased from 50 and last week Fluoxitine (generic prozac) was 20 i asked for an increase to 40.not for depression but to quell impulse spiking///  work is much better unless i am tired.i use checklist with prioritization extensively there, but unable so far to transfeer to my personal life.. i have been able to shift my focus from bad things realizing its a need for stimulation but have transfered it to recovery, seeking God and helping and praying for people... it gives me a better stimulation than the others. I am born again and have a deep deep faith and understand and revalation of Gods will for my life  and to go forward ministering to all i can relate too which is a whole bunch of peepe been banckrupt and divorced tiwce.. adhd and compulsion / impulse related with an arrest for breakin into houses as a teen, 2 dwi's 1 drug and a  4th arrest outcome pending/

I have never been so intimate with God and experirnced his power love or revelations of who he is as I have gad thelast 3 months and I already know him and have had a relationship with him since childhood also unaware  of why i did what my heart didnt want too stuck  and unable to think through to consequences or care who would get hurt as my focus git grabbed time after time.

I am being led to full time ministry sometime in the future 3-5 years? prohesied over by someone i was sharing with that I didnt even know was a Christian. Its so wonderfull and yet almost overwhelming what is coming out of me as God uses me to touch others with similar issues both people spiritual and not,especially on the internet.Which I consider the front lines OF BATTLE the internet! I have 400+ and growing quickly, strong Christian followers. Pastors, prayers, worshipers, Christians strong and in need both, following me on twitter and expect a Growth expotentialy as I seek Gods will and not mine. But part of mine is seeking his, so i am caught up in it and not doing things around the House OR CARING EVEN//... dishes,hygiene, bills,Laundry, food,car//

I also wasaflea market vendor for 12 years and then went to ebay for another 12 buying and selling and treasure hunting, that has also stopped but my apartment car and storage unit are a mess..hoarder kinda not..full blown but pretty bad.. also not generating income from them at this time,dont care about them now.

I work full time in the environmental,health and safety field at amajor corparation and am happy w/ job. just got an unexpected raise Praise God!   but nothing gettindone at home cause im addicted to wanting to be used and being used by God. I prayed for help and my brother showed up, he is also a man of GOD,..we took a trip to Goodwill and he will help me get my apt back also finaces.  2 car payment behind lawer was $5000 and now i need to spend another $1500 for court related stuff ...gamled away $4000 in july and 2500 las tjanuary playin poker..online and casino,,cant pay for what court wont right now andOH YEAH I ALMOST FORGOT I HAVE A TUMOR THE SIZE OF A SMALL APPLE IN MY THROAT RADIATION STAERT IN 2 WEEKS.. AND MAjOR AUDIT for ISO certification STARTS Monday  phew.... got it?

BUT I HAVE NEVER KNOWN THE PEACE AND LOVE AND GOD HIMSELF AS I HAVEIN THE LAST 3 MONTHS... ANDI KNOWWHERE EVER I END UP I AM GONNA BE VICTORIOUS AND OVERCOME FOR HIS GLORY. I have a sponsor (poor guy) i have no moderation after work   constant recovery and God,...but i love it.  need to implement structure... got a tablet with budget and caledar apps.. startig to usr them more and more... but Iguees Im seeking God to much and escaping intp him.  so if anyone has an extra grand or 2 and wants to help a brother become a minister...donations accepted... but i might give some away to the homeless as clothing...its getting cold