Terry,

I am exstatic about this. I have analyzed my reactions to various situations and things for years and I have just realized that in some strange way finishing a project for me was like dreading up coming surgery you know but you don't know the effects afterward, on top of that there is the fear of boredom. By after effects I am refering to responses from friends that you give the project to or just reactions from people can be positive or negative, but because I struggle with dysthymia I tend to see the negative and have to really focus at times to see the positive.

 Secondly, in relation to after effects it is sometimes hard to tell yourself you did a good job and this can be a real stumbling block. I have and am starting to realize that self praise is different than pride and it is okay, you see growing up in the church environment you taught to be humble, however what many people fail to realize is that you can be humble and accepting and happy with your accomplishments.   Thirdly, being a creative individual at times it seems lie you are working with the project as a team, I am not crazy and am aware that this how it sounds, but it helps to realize that the project is for you completing it. Realize I AM NOT CRAZY!!! but having adhd causes me to personalize a lot of things including project completion, the only way I can describe it is the project becomes like a friend and it when it is done it can be like seeing a close friend leaving, as I write this I think I am out to lunch but know that to some out there this will make sense, it just requires everyone else who doesn't get it to use their imaginations

It can also be hard to complete a project because of disappointment over not being able to show a deceased loved one the final project or a distant loved one. For me finishing things can be hard because I would love to show my mom the completed work but know I can't because she died ten years ago when I was seventeen. I know she would have been proud and to see the look on her face of joy and pride in me was enough to complete something. This can be a real stumbling block for people greater than others realize, as finishing a task can in essence cause someone to have to have a flash back or face their grief and issues and often causes a person to stop and re-evaluate. 

  Finally, I was scared of boredom once the project was completed, so i decideed to make a to do list of projects that needes to be completed or would be fun to do and this gave me something to look forward too. A sense of self - worth and renewed vision. Those who struggle to complete things sometimes do so because it is a reflection of the emotional chaos their personal lives are often in.  The personal chaos and lack of completion is their comfort zone because to actiually accomplish for some means peace or greif and moving on, and for some peace is a an unknown world to them.

*Note: I am hoping to get into ADHD advocacy or psych nursing as I find it fascinating and easy to understand especially the explanation aspect and clarification of what it means to have ADHD. If anyone can help me in this regard or wants a 'survivour' of ADHD to speak I would love to do this and learn more from others about the wonderfulness of us, people who have ADHD