Where I have gotten.

Hello everyone,

I know you all have not seen me around for awhile. I decided it was about time to share with you all again.

Life is still going on around my home. I still feel the effects of being a mother with ADHD, depression, and social anxiety. But you know what?? I have been doing better with it all. I love my doctor and I just have to say he is amazing.  He talks to me like no one else does. Makes me feel like I am not nuts. Like my husband just tells me I need to get things done and blah blah blah. But I talk to my doctor about things like my husband can get everything done and I never get anything done. He tells me well you are different you did not ask for this and you can not acomplish things like your husband. He said there are things you are good at that your husband is not good at. He is so positive and always looking  for the best in me and making me feel like I am a great person. He boosts my confidence every time I go. I actually love going to the doctor. haha!!!! He told my husband and I that we should go to some kind of councling just so my husband can understand me more. But I know my husband and he would prob fight with the counsoler or something because you know my husband he knows it all. Even though I do love my husband very much and he takes as best care of us as he can. He can be stubbern.

But life in my house has been going well and I am actually pretty happy with where I am. My doctor did up my depression medicine to 100 mgs instead of 50 and that has helped a ton. He is keeping me on the same dosage of Adderall but that's not where I feel as behind. The energy and the blah and not wanting to do things all have to do with depression not adhd. But I can tell in a day when I am not taking my medicine cuz it feels different and I just can't focus on anything. I have been doing a really good job at remembering medication and been taking it faithfully. I am just glad this is one thing my husband does not feel we can live without and he pays for them. I am happy to have my 3 wonderful children and be a mommy. My life is just how I wanted it to be well without the ADHD and Depression but hey I am working on it and everyone gets put with something you know??  There are some trials I don't want to have and I would rather have this anyday. 

Last summer my sister in law died in a car accident and that was one of the hardest things I have had to go through I was very happy at the time to have medications or I would have been a mess. I cried for days though. She was always wanting to help others and she had the best hugs and she was always smiling and laughing. Even through the rough times. She was there when I had my last child and I actually now thinking back to it am very happy she was there because that was the last big special thing I got to share with her. I feel bad we could have not have spent more time with her. But you don't think anything is going to happen to your famiy.

My husband has gotten a new day job and it has done wonders for my family. Its great to have him home at night and to live on a regualer schedule.