Sometimes I wonder why....

Scott,

Thank you so much for sharing your story. I think we are all full of "what ifs" in life, but the "what ifs" also have another side. If you look at the good things in your life, we'll take the knitting, "what if" you never took up knitting (and no, I don't think you are a sissy), and missed out on the joy you receive from it. "What if" you never landed on this site and shared your story?  Then I would not have known that you have more good days than bad (and that is something to rejoice, isn't it?). I would not have been reminded of the good "what ifs" in my life.

Each decision we make and each thing we do in life shapes what is to come, both good and bad. The "what ifs" can drive us crazy as you say, but they can also bring us joy for knowing that all of the good in our life might not be there is our decisions had been different.

Thank you again for sharing. I hope that tomorrow is once again a good day for you.

Eileen