Tuesday, January 24, 2012
Recent diagnosed with bi-poar and adhd...still trying to get the meds right...seroquel adn adderall worked for awhile, but now I am a zombie again from sroquel, unfocused ad depressed...adderall tolerance is up I guess...any other stimulants that are stronger ... for a stress filled work, need to concentrate...????I take 3 x 20 mg adderrall, and now my doc tried vyvance, 20 mg...not helping me ..now I feel like a zombie again (seroquel siide effects)!
I work as a legal assistant and have witnessed the horrible end result of folks on Seroquel so PLEASE see if your doc can get you on something other than that!!! I took Adderall for my ADD for a few months and the more I took of it the more confused I began to feel. After researching forums I had my doc change me to Dexedrine and it has been a lifesaver. No side effects and there does not seem to be a tolerance build up either. Of course, each drug affects others differently, but I took myself off the Adderall about one week prior to my scheduled appt and have been on the Dexedrine for about 4 months now and it works the same as it did the day I started taking it. It seems to make me "MENTALLY ALERT" and in my fast paced position I have to be that way - not all confused and lethargic feeling like i was on the Adderall - GOOD LUCK TO YOU - BUT PLEASE AND I CANNOT STRESS ENOUGH PLEASE GET OFF THE SEROQUEL!!!!
I don't lke seroquel at all...but my doctor seems to want me on it....we tried so many others...I seemed to have stabled eventuallly on seroquel...but I still don;t feel right at all. I have passed out and cracked my head and chin open, I dont; remember driving somewhere without a licence and hitting 3 cars,....(or was that lithium). I don't know any more...I was referred to a shrink again, and he prescribed ablify and another one (starts with L) but I have chdone that route with another shrink...seroquel and another anit psycotic 500mg and 600mgs, and I can;t described how it was...just disgusting...I sat in my bed and could not move, barely to get up and pee, hold on to walls..no sleep, sweats, night terrors.....finally I called my own doctor and told him I think that shrink od's me...doc said if I had a fever go to a hospital now...I had a sight borderline fever, and just slept it off, and doc got me off those drugs, and slowly reduced my seroquel 300mg. With adderall it was goiing well for awhile, now I dont feel good again, I cry, yell, forget, confused , unfocused, mad, sad....doc is trying to help me...its trial and error i guess...I am not going to that shrink again, nor am I going on abilify and the other...I read about them, bad shit. Abilify was even recalled in the states at some point. Shrink said it doesn't make you fat, but I read it makes you gain weight, just like al the rest. I have to go to the gym aeveryday to keep my weight normal, even with just one antipsychotic and low dosel I am sad, lonely, no friends, don;t understand myself, my behavour and thoughts, dont like my self. Nor does any one else I am sure. I don;t know what will happen, but I am scared of this, I don;t like it at all, and have no choice. At least I have a new doctor who seems to care and want to help me. What was the occurance, if you don't mind me asking, about the seroquel? I am sure if it hasn't already happened, it will. If I go off meds, I risk mg oing back to self medicating, which means death for sure. I feel sad. Thank you for your comments, you are the only one who answered me........thank you. S.
I am so sorry to hear you are struggling so badly. Meds can be the devil for sure. I know when I started getting the side effects of the Adderall it made me hateful, moody, very confused feeling & basically just a ticking timebomb. I removed myself from that med. Doing 150% better with the Dexedrine. The Seroquel you are taking is known to have deadly results and really bad side effects - there are lawsuits out the wazoo regarding this medication. I am not a doctor and please do not take anything I say as medical advice to you, I can only tell you to google dangers of Seroquel and you should come up with more information than you would humanly be able to read in your lifetime! I certainly wish you the best with being able to get your meds straightened out. Keep yourself informed and search for some forums that you can join where people have the same diagnosis as yourself and you may be surprised at the information you can find in those. I found out about the Dexedrine in a forum myself and went to my doctor with it who thought it was a good idea to give the drug a try and many months later all I can say is it was the best thing I have ever done. I know Seroquel is known to cause depression, etc., so again - I hope you are able to be taken off of that drug and put on something that will work better for you. Again, please search the forums on these matters you may find some helpful info for yourself. :-) S-
Thank you ... I will go and reearch seroquel....I believe you, i is a horrible drug. I am glad you are better, I hope I will be too, soon! Goodnight, getting late, and I can't seem to stop editing one of my new photos from today. Thanks and goodnight!
Thank you ... I will go and reearch seroquel....I believe you, i is a horrible drug. I am glad you are better, I hope I will be too, soon! Goodnight, getting late, and I can't seem to stop editing one of my new photos from today. Thanks and goodnight!
Thank you ... I will go and reearch seroquel....I believe you, i is a horrible drug. I am glad you are better, I hope I will be too, soon! Goodnight, getting late, and I can't seem to stop editing one of my new photos from today. Thanks and goodnight!
Thank you ... I will go and reearch seroquel....I believe you, i is a horrible drug. I am glad you are better, I hope I will be too, soon! Goodnight, getting late, and I can't seem to stop editing one of my new photos from today. Thanks and goodnight!
LOL....I am glad to know I'm not the only person that edits a pic to death! I can start out sometimes to do the smallest edit to a pic and find myself there 1 or 2 hrs later having recreated the entire picture!!! I make jewelry which is very calming for me - I suppose it keeps my brain focused on my next bead or next step as opposed to the gazillion things I need and want to do, but just never quite seem to get to. Please let me know how you continue to do - sometimes it helps just to have someone to write to here and there. :-) Sending up prayers for ya!
Hi again! Thank you for replying to me again, I am in a lonely place right now. Not just physically but mentally. I moved across the country (Canada) to get away from all the drugs in Vancouver, now I only know my boyfriend, who is trying to be patient with me, I was diagnosed after I moved to toronto. Jerry and my doggie, Puddie. And my photogrphy. And my Bpolar. And my Adhd. No friends..thank god I picked up my photography again after 15 years in television and substance abuse, I am keeping busy experimenting with my photos. If you ever get a minute, you can take a look at my portfolio on fanartReview.com/Simonka.
My mom cares about what is happening with me, but shes in Vancouver, and not well herself, arthritis. My sister and brother don't understand or talk about what is going on with me, I think they have just kept their judgemnt of me as a drunk, and drug addict, even though I have been clean for 6 or 7 years. No one goes out of their way to talk to me, it makes me sad, i cry alot, but I am strong and I am not taking on their resentments, I have my own problems. I am feeling better, my doc took me off vyvance, and gave me adderall xr back with a ritalin for the morning...can't get up otherwise! I still work for the Hockey League when needed, but I am getting stressed out again, hard job. I only do it part time when I am needed. I am trying to change my negativity around to positive. sometimes I can, sometimes it is imposssible. I have to learn to live with this and i am still in kind of a shock, i never expected my life to turn this way. I had ambitions, goals, education, I had no doubt I was going to the top! I crashed instead, and went furhter down then the bottom..it embarrases me and I cannot forgive myself. My boyfreind doesn't understand my condition, nor do I for that matter, but i am trying. I have asked him to please read about it, so that he won't think I am just nuts, my behavoiur is an imablance of chemicals, I am not a retard, dry drunk, starving addict, but a profesional with a disorder that needs to be treated. I know I can keep my glass half full instead of half empty, I am starting to believe its true, and how it is affecting my life. It saddens me so much, that is where my pain is, and why I always cry inside. I am angry, I still think my poor choices have something to do with my condition. I also haven't addressed a hard part of many years of incest from my father who is dead now. My mom is the only one who beieves me, the rest of my family refuse to think that our father was capable of any wrong. I forgive him, he had an illness, like I have my illness, he died with such guilt and fear it kills me to think about it, so I don;t. And I don't want to address that issue, whats the point? I understand it in my way, I have no control over what other people think. Especially if they are in denial and refuse to get educated, even in the smallest of things ... like alcoholism. Except my mother. I am sorry, I didn't mean to go on like this, but every time I try to talk to Jerry about anything ,he just shuts down too. And there is no one else, so a I am writing this, I am answering my own questions....I have so much pain inside, and nowhere to put it. Anyway, I have to learn to live with medication, and to stop analyzing how i feel all the time, and thinking about my position. I don't know what normal means, so how do you know when you are feeling normal? and what is normal anyway? Who says what is normal, maybe schicophrenics are normal and the "normals" are the insane ones? I hope I get this sorted out soon, and my pain, I don't want to go back to hell, of self medication. And it is hell, this is heaven actuallly now that I think about it. I will let you go now, I apologize, but I guess if nowone talks to me about things, I have to live with my own conclusions. Fine with me, even if I think I am so stupid to let myself get here, I know I am not an idiot. I wonder what your story is.......Let me know if you like any of my pics and I wil send you whatever you like, in greeting cards form, enlargements or whatever.....I am bulding up my equipment, and hope to do something with my work. I have so many, i want to dos ome kind of onlne businessor somehing. instead of wasting space on my computers. Have a good night, hope I didn't go overboard with this post. My fingers keep typing and my mind keeps thinking. My boyfriend can't understand why I always want to figure things out, fix things, make things work,find solutions. I don't think there is anythign wrong with that..... Goodnight! Simona
Hi Simona! Let me begin this reply with the fact that I still don't think I know how to spell N - O - R - M - A - L.....lol!!!! You absolutely have not burdened me with your story, I am so glad you are sharing your story. You and I are worlds apart (I live in Alabama), but one thing I STRONGLY believe is that God will put a particular person directly in our path for a reason. The chances of my running across your post on this huge website are relatively small I would imagine. I never read them honestly, only the articles but for whatever reason yours grabbed me and I am glad I responded. I do have quite a story but due to the nature of my work and the professional level I have to maintain I would be more comfortable chatting through email. I have come A LONG WAY in the past few years and don't want to side step myself! Hope you understand. Email me at slashbaylor7298@gmail.com......I have a lot to tell you about myself and I hope some of my past pain and misery can help you through yours. Until your email try to realize that hitting rock bottom is actually not so bad depending on how you choose from this moment forward to look at it. I joke all the time saying rock bottom was my foundation to a better life. When you are on the bottom there is no where to go BUT UP! Being on the bottom can also help us appreciate the things that should really matter in our lives but can also force us to live inside of our own heads too, and I'm convinced that's never a good place to be!!!! :-):-):-) BY THE WAY LOVE YOUR PHOTOGRAPHY!!!!! I will share some pics of my jewelry I make with you when I get your email. TTYL - S