Saturday Sept. 13th 2008,

     Hi Everyone, I hope everyone's doing okay, we are doing good ourselves.  These past 2 wks since Labor Day had been kinda rough for me though.  I was having probs. w/focusing at work last week pretty much the whole wk of work (Tues. - Fri., cause of Mon. being Labor Day), this wk @ wrk had been a little better but I was still having probs. focusing a little bit @ wrk.  I had my mnthly one on one session w/the counselor on this past Thurs. the 11th & he asked me "Why are u always so stressed out lately when u have came in for a session", I replied to him "Cause I am".  He asked me if it was wrk, Kaleb (my son), or my brother, I told him that it wasn't my brother & it wasn't really Kaleb either, that it was mostly wrk & that I think that I am begining to get bored w/the job I have now cause I do the same thing every day I go to wrk & I wasn't used to doing the same thing every day at wrk when I was wrking at the gas station.  He then said to me, isn't this job u have now still better than the last one u had, I told him yes it was cause the other job the cowrkers I had stressed me out all the time cause of all the drama that went on in that place on a daily basis.  I also told him that little things at home & at wrk where ticking me off pretty much on a daily basis & that I was getting frustrated very easily & I was having probs. focusing at wrk.  He told me that the Wellbutrin I'm taking was to help me focus, make me not so aggitated & having little things starting to ticking me off, he also asked me what the dosage was of the  Wellbutrin I was taking, I told him the dosage I was taking & he said that, that was the highest dose a Psychiatrist could prescribe to someone.  He also said that it sound like the Wellbutrin isn't doing anything for me anymore & that I might need a meds change, cause he said that some people that after taking a certain med for so long their bodies come accustomed to the med & it doesn't wrk for them anymore as in my case he thinks.  So he put it into his notes that he also passes a copy of to the Psychiatrist that we see, to let her know that he thinks that the Wellbutrin isn't wrking for me anymore & that he thinks that I need a meds change.  The counselor asked when's the next time that u/Kaleb see the Psychiatrist, told him that  my son has an appt. on Sept. 22nd for a meds check.   He said good that way she can/maybe will put me on a completely different med or he said that she might add another med on for me to take along w/the Wellbutrin.  He said that he wasn't for sure on which one she would do cause she's the one who makes those types of decisions & that he just tells the Psychiatrist that he thinks one of his clients may need a meds change or another med added to the one they already take.  The court case that I had the judge decided to go ahead & let me do the paymnt plan that me & my attn. discussed w/the DA @ the DA Pretrial Conference we had back in Aug, if the judge wanted to though he didn't have to go along w/the DA's suggestion, he could of sentenced me to 9 mnths in Jail & a $10,000 fine, but he didn't he went w/the DA's suggestion instead, Thank God.  Kaleb has had a great start to this school year so far, his teacher uses the Stoplight Method for redirecting her stundents when they aren't paying attention or they're misbehaving in class.  She puts a sticker in their Assingment Notebooks each day as to what the got for a color on the Stoplight that day.  Kaleb has gotten 4 grns, 2 yellows & this past Wed. he got a red (which also means that a note came home as well), she has the stundents write a note to their parents on a small piece of red paper as to why they got a red sticker that day.  Well I will let you all for for now & don't worry I'm not to going to quit my job yet either & I have no plans in the near future to quit it either.  I will give you all an update on what the Psychiatrist did w/me & my meds situation in about 2 wks from today.  Take Care, Heather & Kaleb