I'm 19 years old and am in my second year of college. I struggled through life with family problems and some depression in high school. I also had a lot of anxiety and once i start college it got much worse! That's when I seeked help; especially after having a mother that is an undiagnosed mother whom is bipolar. I was scared and don't want to turn out like her.
I'm seeing a psychiatrist currently and I'm being treated for bipolar with Abilify and I'm also on Xanx, daily. Before hand, I saw my physician and he tried several antidepressants which made my anxiety that i was have much worse. What My main issue right now is that I'm struggling to find energy to work and stay focused with my school work. So my doctor put me on vyvanse, which got me focused and together but I really didn't feel "speedy" like my doc said I would be? Is that normal? THe vyvanse only lasted 4-6 hours and then I would like crash to the point where i felt like I had ADHD more than ever. So i called my doc and he put me on two 20mgs of Ritalin a day. The Ritalin got me focused but again, I don't have any energy on the drug, it like made me tired; and when you're on xanx daily it's tough to find evergy to get your work done in the first place. So I called the doc again and I am now going in for an appt? I'm confused and I don't know what to do? I want to know if I have actual ADD or ADHD or what my body needs. In high school I recall an appt with my doctor and my grandma and going in there to talk about me struggling to focus in school but I came out of the doctors office with no help or guidance.
Thanks for reading through this, I just need someones else's out look on all of this? I'm very frustrated. I also have chronic migraines and have been medicated daily for them as well for two years now. Migraines are heredity in my family.
Could the bipolar have something to do with the way I'm feeling at this point?
Ks
Dear Dr. Ballas,
If anyone has information as to how to go about getting a diagnosis of ADHD as an adult, I would be very grateful for it. As a child, my teachers and the school counselor asked my parents to have me tested. However, my parents were very religious and do not believe in ADHD, depression, schizophrenia, etc. They felt that I just needed discipline and prayer. As I have gotten older, I have learned coping mechanisms, but many complications of the disorder have remained. I got married last year, and my husband really wants me to get tested and get as much help as I can for both my sanity and his.
Brittany; I have the same background story! very religious parents who didn't believe in mental illness, only spiritual rebellion.
this is how I finally got help after decades of not being able to function due to adhd...
first, write down ALL the symptoms you can think of that you have- explain how they feel physically as well as mentally, and give as much detail as possible. In your paper, include details about your parents being religious, how you felt as a child, and also how your life has been negatively affected by these problems. Try to remember as much as you can from your younger years- this is very important.
Then take this information and make an appointment with a doctor who (if possible) deals with depression/anxiety/addiction/etc, and also one who treats children as well as adults, if possible. their experience with children will help them be more aware of what adhd actually IS, and how it can affect people.
Even if the dr seems incredulous, and even flat-out says he disagrees, remember that it is YOUR body, YOUR mind, and YOUR life- no one knows it better than you do. With that in mind, DEMAND a referral to a psychiatrist, or ask anyone you know who has mental health/adhd issues if they know of a good psychiatrist. Sometimes with a personal referral from a friend some psychiatrists will even let you make payments if your insurance is worthless (like mine is), or will squeeze you into their calendar even if they're booked for months in advance. After countless calls and being told they didn't accept my insurance, or weren't taking new patients, I asked friends to try to remember any psychiatrist they'd seen, or heard of, who might be flexible. Eventually my friend called her old psychiatrist and told her my story- I called the psychiatrist an hour later, and when she said my insurance was impossible to get money out of I said "I will blow off my power bill and pay you cash- I will do whatever it takes. I am absolutely desperate, and you're my only hope." She said "well------just come in and we'll work something out, okay?" even some psychiatrists have souls- you just have to find them :) anyway, getting help for my adhd that I was never aware of until recently is the best thing that's ever happened to me- it has allowed me to LIVE for the first time i can remember since I was 3 or 4 years old. I feel "real" rather than as if I'm floating around, I can play with my kids for longer than 30 seconds (not an exaggeration), I can accomplish things and confront tasks that previously were overwhelmingly terrifying to me- I can even have a calm, rational confrontration with necessary people without backing down or having a panic attack! I did not know that it was possible for me to be "normal"- I was depressed from age 6 until I began my adhd treatment- I always thought I was "crazy" and that there simply was no cure. Adhd treatment has changed my life dramatically, almost instantly, and even tho I went through a couple months of forcing myself to keep calling drs and keep asking people about other dr's they knew (I used to have a phone phobia also that made those calls literally painful for me), it was WELL worth it. I don't feel like a different person, exactly- I feel like the person I was always meant to be, as if my "adhd life" was a bad flu, and now that I'm finally "well" I don't know how I managed to survive as long as I did being as sick as i was. So for anyone who is scared, or having a hard time finding a dr who will help them, DO NOT GIVE UP! IT WILL BE WORTH IT! Be honest and detailed as you can, and if you're desperate and feeling suicidal about not getting any relief or help- TELL them that. DR'S get a lot of drug-seeking "fakes" who aren't suffering, only pretending, so sometimes you have to almost embarrass yourself with your honesty before they'll believe you. Also, there are still dr's out there who take regular old money, so scrape together as much as you can and if all else fails, BEG. you'll thank yourself a million times a day once you're being treated and start being able to live your life again.
Hang in there, everybody who hasn't found help yet- you will get thru this! It took me over a decade of asking dr's for help and going undiagnosed and then months of KNOWING what was wrong with me but still not having an official diagnosis before I found some relief- also remember that you have no idea how badly you're suffering now until you're no longer suffering- you will be shocked at how sick you were and didn't know it. Good luck!
Hello Dr. Ballas,
I was wondering about your comment that ADHD symptoms become less obvious as a person ages. I am nearly 50 years old and maybe it is less obvious, but I think that it can cause you to have more problems with life issues as you get older.
When I was younger I did not worry so much about my future income/support the way I do now. I was never able to concentrate enough to go to college, although I did try at one point. I had many personal relationship problems, which I still have today. But financially I am more concerned about my future welfare than I ever was before.
People who have had good paying jobs during their entire life are able to make plans and save for their retirement. But for someone like me, at this age I am pretty scared about the possibilities of not having the income or savings to help me survive during my retirement years.
I was married for 20 years and now I am divorced so I have lost that security. (No health insurance either.) I am also raising a young child (as an older parent). I worry about money issues all of the time. My ex-husband does pay alimony and child support, but when the alimony ends I am going to be very concerned about my ability to work full time and still care for my son when he is sick, etc., at a low paying position (when I have to take time off work to care for him). How can I ever be more self sufficient and not rely so much on my ex?
I live in the state of Texas, which has it's own rules regarding child support & income. When my ex makes sooooo much more money than I could ever even consider making, it makes me wonder if a judge could make him pay more child support because of that, especially due to the fact that I do have ADD and have to deal with all that it means to a person like me.
Just some thoughts....