Too much expetations for myself

I renewed contract and welfare people helped me,I thought I can have neat room,

at least sleep on bed.

So I ordered small sofabed..choosed carefully..(as a former stationaly planner an an Artist I can say I didn't wrong choosing things "only in its taste".

But I can't deal with things after helpng person(only once in two year)gathered it,boxes are broken and things are everywhere.

And I decide I do exercise,reading many books and thought it will good for me,lifetime exercise hater.But now I am scared to go out,even one step out of door needs much power,So I got a cheap indoor machine.

It's 45ch*45cm...No probrem for you.

But,I found I can't find where I can place it.and it's sooooo heavy.

I spend too much,enjoy music and TV,make many things and many home page,

Someone like my mother may say"you have to stay in a life very-social welfare like".

10 years ago,I flew England (and not as a job trip, went many country)for very lucky job trip and even could visit the Animation studio the Beatles's "Yellow Submarime"had made.I did live performance,and worked,if not my job is not enough to live,did many pert time job.

Spend highschool days with adults discussing about war,went political depertment of my University....

Yes,hyperactive,but also,simply active.I'ts hard to change my mind into quiet life like old person,even I am now called disabeld.

It7s sad some people want to keep me inside "welfare people".

Anyway,I an overwhelmed.(sorry for I cannot read all share posts,I might spend all day on web.My hyperfucus is also tellible.)

Okay,I can't bite whole fish.(Japanese version)Have to make it Sashimi with knife.

To cut raw fish into sashimi is very difficult,(actual fish)and professional Chefs have great way cut it into tidy sashimi.

Today's Sashimi

--Gather books

--cut cardboard boxes small

-and till next week find a place to exercise,and make my bed (now halfly made)is enough to sleep.

Actually,Sashimi and Sushi are different..(some people thnks it's same)