My life has been a very dramatic sequel of events...still continuing.

I have been diagnosed with ADHD for 6 years now, and I still did not get the help I need. I dont know what it does to you or how to handle it. I dont know if I feel like normal people. I don't know. I just know that I'm suffering, and I need help and support. I have never met anyone with my condition. In fact, I was just told 7 months ago that I have ADHD, since I was taking my medication without me knowing what it's for. Please dont be surprised and please, dont judge me. My parents have kept in the dark for 6 years and I have been told all those years that I suffer from a nuerological problem. I know I'm not alone but I feel very alone. There's no one here I can tell about my condition. I still take my medication but I dont visit my therapist anymore becuase I felt it was just useless. I feel this huge bomb waiting to explode inside of me all the time, and I feel I'm in danger. I also take anti depressants, according to a prescription, but I still feel sad most of the time, even though I manage to smile most of the time. I dont have a life and I feel I will never have one. I will never be normal. Please help.