HELP LARZRIPPIN STAY OUT OF PRISON AND START A NEW LIFE

By larzrippin Thursday, March 04, 2010

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Hey everybody,
     I am Larzrippin and the name fits.   I was recently released from prison after 8 ½ years. No theft, violence or crimes against person. So that only leaves the one other choice. Since releasing I have moved a considerable distance. I am completely new to the area. I am diagnosed ADHD. Most prison systems in the nation have completely stopped stimulant medication. So in getting out it seems that I face considerable obstacles. And it seems most of all the old life was both comfortable and exciting the perfect thing for ADHDer. So now wanting a different life. One that is not subject to not pass go at any time. I have gotten the most positive feedback and information from this sight. So now I am asking you to share with me, As I attempt to FOCUS!!!! .   For me, knowing I am not the only one going through this seems to Help.
    This is as much about all of you facing these same challenges everyday. First for me is to get my Meds going correctly. The Challenge her is that I of course have no medical insurance, I was not released in the State. I have managed so far thanks to Eileen, to locate one free clinic in Minnesota.
And have actually procrastinated getting in touch with them. DUH!! So today I try once again to get things done to completion. I do have several things going of course but as usual more getting started than getting finished. I am just hoping that I can use this sight as one more tool to help me stay on point. And can use all the feedback I can get. To hopefully make the right choices??? So I do look forward to sharing both mine and your misadventures.
If nothing else this should prove to be quite interesting,

    Thank You in advance for your time and feed back if nothing else, Just add your own short quote for the day and let us all be enlightened
(quote) for today. In my life as in Nascar , I have to remember sometimes you actually have to “slow down to go faster”

                  THANKS, LARZRIPPIN

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nancy

3/ 5/10 1:26pm

what a great qoute,I can understand being withoutmeds.i have past issues with drugs and had a brain anurism rupture 3 yrs ago. So also some brain damage.The hospital I went to to rebillitate refused to prescripe my concerta because I was honest about my past but my addiction specialist was the one who diagnosed and prescribedmy meds.Needless to say it was very frustrating. I couldn't focus before my anurism. I darned sure couldn't after.I feel like I lost alot of benefit from that rehab because was not given my medsI wish people would understand (we tend tio self medicate when not properly diagnosed and treated. I suggest 1st thing in am Make a list of 5 things to be done that day Five should'nt be to overwhelming and make a honest effort to do them You have to focus on a way to get your meds. Make that your job.Call health department probation and parole office they may have some ideas. Just don't give up. You've come to far to give yup now. Remrmber do not try to self medicate. Good luck.I'll be thinking about you.

larzrippin

3/ 5/10 8:27pm

Thanks Nancy I did mangage to get 3 tasks completed today and hopefully tomorrow more. A big chunk of ice slid of our roof today and bent one of our awnings so 1 more project for tomorrow. Thanks I will keep posting to help me see what I am trying to accomplish thanks

Eileen Bailey, Health Guide

3/ 5/10 10:16pm

Larzrippin

I am glad that we can be of some help to you. I hope you continue to share your story with us and keep us apprised on how you are doing. Maybe having somewhere to come and "check in" will help you stay motivated and remain focused on creating a better life for yourself.

I hope you get a chance to follow up on the free clinics and have the opportunity to be seen by a doctor and begin treatment for ADHD. In the meantime, remember it has been shown that daily exercise can help to reduce some of the symptoms and help increase attention and focus throughout the day. Incorporating daily exercise may help you while you are working on getting an appointment at the clinic and certainly is good for your health as well.

Keep us posted.

Eileen

larzrippin

3/ 6/10 10:20am

Thanks and you are actually very correct in what I am trying to do. By checkinng in here on a daily basis I am hoping to stay on track, everyday my old life calls me back. It seems a curse at times it is something I did well, so yes as today begins I have 3 things to get done today and it seems at times that that is either way to many or not enough. But thanks and I will check back in later today thanks again. Larz

Eileen Bailey, Health Guide

3/ 9/10 11:26pm

So how did you do in getting your list completed? Have you managed to contact the free clinic?

And what are you planning for today?

Wishing you a productive day!

Eileen

larzrippin

3/10/10 8:39am

Today is the day I am going to track down the free clinic stuff regardless of everything else thank you for the push that I need sosmetimes I feel as though I actually need a shove thanks Eileen

Eileen Bailey, Health Guide

3/10/10 8:48am

I'll look for your reply later in the day to find out how it went.

Eileen

Sandy

3/24/10 11:02pm

Hi,

I have enjoyed reading what others have tried and I just had to add a few words of my own, both about what my problem is and what I am doing to try to overcome it. Yes among other medical problems I have I am also hyperactive. Recently a friend who spent the day with me remarked that I would work on one project for awhile and then on the way to finding something I needed to work on that 1st project I would see another unfinished project and I would get "hooked"-her word- on this 2nd project and seemingly forget all about the first project, And I would go on all day jumping from one unfinished project to another, and at the end of the day, really had nothing that was completed at all. And I would be totally worn out. Just sucked dry but really nothing to show for it.

I am not able to take the hyperactivity medications because they interact badly with some other medications that I am even more in need of taking. So I am having to find other ways to try to get my behaior under control.

What I am doing now is taking a large "whiteboard" and, putting it in front of me each day, I write down all my unfinished projects (or at least as many as I can fit onto the board!) that I have hanging around. Then I take and re-list the projects in terms of priority- how important is the project, what kind of a time schedule am I on- in terms of what is most pressing. And then I try to take 3 of those projects and beneath them, list the things I need to do to either finish the project or at least move it along to a reasonable point. Then I take those three projects and the things I need to get done and I write them out. And those are m,y goals for the day.

Giving myself permission to work on 3 different projects reduces my anxiety that comes from trying to focus solely on one project. And when I list the steps that are necessary to move those projects along, I have some concrete goals in front of me and later, I can feel some sense of satisfaction that, even though I may not have completed any one project, I probably have at least taken some "planned steps" in moving things along. This way I don't feel like I am just wandering aimlessly with no direction at all.

My life feels a little less out of control this way. Now I have to admit that I miss some of the freedom that I received from moving from one task to another all day long. But it is a decent trade off when I consider that I actually accomplished some things!

Well perhaps this might be helpfull for someone else. It doesn't work every day for me but I do seem to have gotten more things finished out since I have been trying this. Good luck to anyone else who gives this a try. Let me know if it is helping. I would love some feedback from anyone else. Do take care!

Sandy.

larzrippin

3/25/10 12:51am

Well it is now the 24th and the discouragment starts to set in I have tracked several different clinics to the same end the one that was most promising was shot down because I did not live in the right county of of the local adult adhd centers wanted 1200 for evauluation then they refer me to actual doctor who then based on there recomendations decides the course of treatment. This is unsane to be this hard to get help then on the flip side a girl I like very much is doing all the right things I want to figure out a way us yes she likes me to but I am fu******** spinning my wheels and well you get the picture. Ihave medical records that show diagnosis and all that does anyone think they are in a hurry to medicate in prison they are all the downer they started off giving me doxipin and went up 300mg a day thats insane here this will work it worked on that rino over there it took virtually 3 yearsb to get the meds right they offered to switch me from ritilin to aderall I thought they were insane again I'm in prison for amphetamine why when the Ritilin worked woyld you switch to the treadmil that is amphetamine at least for me at this point I am ready to for any of them not good I do at least see the danger signs will I be strong enough to head them that is the question I've seen them before and just stepped on the gas I swore I wasn't going back but I see my resolve waining. Thanks Larzrippin

larzrippin

3/26/10 9:50pm

Well it is now the 24th and the discouragement starts to set in I have tracked several different clinics to the same end the one that was most promising was shot down because I did not live in the right county of of the local adult adhd centers wanted 1200 for evaluation then they refer me to actual doctor who then based on there recommendations decides the course of treatment. This is unsane to be this hard to get help then on the flip side a girl I like very much is doing all the right things I want to figure out a way for us yes she likes me too but I am fu******** spinning my wheels and well you get the picture. I have medical records that show diagnosis and all that does anyone think they are in a hurry to medicate in prison they are all the downer stuff they started off giving me doxipin and went up 300mg a day that's insane here this will work it worked on that rhino over there it took virtually 3 years to get the meds right then they offered to switch me from ritilin to aderall I thought they were insane again I'm in prison for amphetamine why when the Ritilin worked would you switch to the treadmill that is amphetamine at least for me. At this point I am ready to for any of them, not good!! I do at least see the danger signs, will I be strong enough to heed them? that is the question I've seen them before and just stepped on the gas I swore I wasn't going back but I see my resolve waning. Thanks Larzrippin

Eileen Bailey, Health Guide

3/27/10 1:35pm

Oh my, what a terrible situation. Please do hang in there! I know the mental health system is sorely lacking and makes it so much more difficult to get treatment than it should be. Are you eligible for medicaid? At least then you would be able to get a doctor without having to rely on the free clinics, which obviously don't seem to be working for you.

I will keep up my resolve for you and continue to pray that something works for you and you do not end up back in prison. I do hope something works out.

As far as the girl, good luck. Take your time, don't rush into it, but take it slow and see what develops.

Keep me posted.

Eileen

larzrippin

3/27/10 2:55pm

Thanks again for your words at least I can see the trouble ahead to hopefully make the right decisions time and time again It does not take very many bad decisions to develop into one huge mistake. So still knowing what I know the old life and all its excitement draws me every day. I havet o actually do all I can to recall that at one point I had massive resolve to never again put my freedom in jepordy. And here and now it is a daily chore just to remember the resolve i had, let alone actually feel it. I am trying, I have slipped and recovered and the $100.000.00 question which slip is the one that is often unrepairable, except, at great price. I guess life always has to be precarious at least for me. As far as the girl goes slow is all it can be right now but she is far away at this point. But I see it going one of two ways either we will find a way or not. I can't return there. Thats a good decision.. BELIVE ME!!! not sure when I will check back in strange but in my small world the outcome is significant. But in the grand scheme is really just the opposite. Thanks for letting me share. Larzrippin

Eileen Bailey, Health Guide

3/30/10 9:42pm

I hope you are doing well and I hope you will change your mind and check in more often. I know you said outcomes are significant but it is important to celebrate each success, no matter how small. Often, small successes start building and become a larger success. Each victorious outcome must start with a step in the right direction.

I will help in applauding each step, even baby steps, in the right direction.

Eileen

larzrippin

3/31/10 1:52am

Thanks from the bottom of my heart you know what is funny not haha funny. I will put it this way I borrowed some of my friends Meds and got more accomplished the last 3 days than the 3 weeks prior to that. And I know believe me I know. So I will keep fighting the battle I am going to call every DR in 50 miles and offer my services to paint or handyman stuff but I will explain it will get done much cleaner if I am on my meds. HAHA But that is my new plan one of them is oing to work with me I will make it happen I need to stop this train I call me. When I finally got my Meds right in prison. I was able to draw. I started a book that everybody who has read it says it is good unfinished. But here is the weird one I am not really mathematically inclined I mean math calculus and beyond My GPA 3.9 I just got a clue on math but it goes further I was dreaming vivid almost lucid dreams about doing math and I was doing massive equations on blackboards the guy in the dream the dream me understood WOW. I just wish I would have got it. Thanks for everything I will check in

Lori

6/25/10 10:31am

Try to eat as healthy as possible. Fruits and raw vegetables.Stay away from fast food. Take an omega 3 supplement (fish oil) and get out and excercise, walk, swim. Try going to website Badgercare.org for insurance. Face your fears, you'll be so proud of yourself. Just take one thing at a time. Good luck to you.

HELP LARZRIPPIN STAY OUT OF PRISON AND START A NEW LIFE

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