I am a 43 year old male. I have struggled for most of my life not knowing that I had A.D.D. (I am not hyperactive) and I have dyscaluculia with minor dyslexia. I had never ever liked or had been around drugs. I had stayed clear of all "temptations". I barely got through school with C's and only a handful of B's and if I was lucky maybe an A. My relationships suffered. I couldn't hold a job. And I had really tried twice to go to college but to no avail. I was always anxiety driven and eventually depressed. I went to go see several "free" therapists, that had tried to get into my brain and examine WHY I was the way I was. They couldn't find anything to blame it on. Until my 2nd attempt at college when a counselor wanted me to get tested. Lo and behold, I was told I was A.D.D. and I had dyscalculia with some Dyslexia! During that time in my life my girlfriend and I found out we were pregnant. Unfortunately, I was not able to finish my studies and get the help I needed with the school therapist because I had to find another job to help support my wife's Law School, and take care of my son.
That relationship didn't work and I found myself 30 years old, divorced, severly in debt, and moving in with my mother. It was (again) a BAD situation for me.
So there I was, trying again to make sense of my crazy decisions and life. Somehow I got the courage to follow my dream and move to Los Angeles and be an actor or do something within the film and TV industry. At that time, I had found a new girlfriend that wanted to do the same. She only lasted 6 months before she got frustrated with her life and with me. Eventually, I found jobs as a Production Assistant, and slightly moved up the ladder working on some great shows. By this time, I had tried some Prescrition drugs like Buspar, Xanax, Serazone, and eventually Lexapro. I had also learned how to figure out how bad my A.D.D. was...if I couldn't sit down to read, or even watch TV it was BAD. I was always figity too. My brain was on Warp drive 12! Despite a new therapist and these anti anxiety drugs nothing really worked and I gave up on pills in general. UNTIL, my friend gave me this special Tea. I had been experiencing a really bad headache. My friend said he would prepare his special tea and without really knowing what was in the tea I took it. Without 45 minutes to an hour, I found myself extremely relaxed. My headache was gone. I was in a better mood. I left to the restroom and while there I picked up a magazine they had laying on the tank. I began to read it....and read...and read...and read. Half and hour later, my wife is calling out my name. She found me. She asked me what was I up to in the restroom and I told her "baby, I am reading!" She couldn't believe it. Yes, something so easy for some, is a really hard for me to do. When I came out of my cave, I asked my friend about the tea. He said "It's Medical Cannibus Tea!" WOW! I couldn't believe it! This prompted me to chat with my Doctor about this. Now that I was going to attempt my 3rd time at College we decided to try (now that I had better medical insurance) Adderall. The Adderall worked, but NOT good enough. Then we slid over to Ritalin. That seemed to work well for school, but it really zombied me out. I was always a bit clammy, but I was getting my work done. Still, it wasn't where I needed to be. People were always asking me if I was okay or if I was angry. Unfortunately, these drugs can make you feel this way. Sometimes on the way down from the drug you can feel it...not good. So, I asked my friend for some of his tea. Again, it worked!
Eventually, I went to get my recommendation for Medical Cannibus, and made legal to carry, smoke and ingest medical Canni. I began experimenting with it only on the weekends. I found that it provided better focusing than some of the other drugs I had taken for my A.D.D. and that I was not Zombied out. I wasn't really getting "high"...just enough to focus. I found that Sativa's mixed with Indica's really worked better. Then instead of taking my nightime "booster" of Ritalin, I would take one hit...that's it. And that worked better than taking another dose of Ritalin. Finally, I realized that while the Ritalin was okay, when I combined a lower dosage of Ritalin with only one hit of Medical Cani, I was at my best.
I am now on the Dean's List at a Major University, I have a grade point average of 4.0 and I only have about a semester and a half to get my degree in Animation. I have produced shows for cable and I have since remarried to an amazing woman. I am out of debt and I live in Beverly Hills! Honestly, I live a faireytale life! I still meter myself and my intake of ANY of the drugs I take for A.D.D.. There are times when I wish I didn't have to take anything. But, I'm not wired that way.
I DO NOT think that Medical Cani is for everyone. I think it should be treated as any other drug on the market. It should be monitored. In the case of some reports, it may exacerbate and amplify any problems and/or conditions you already have.Sometimes your issues might be beyond A.D.D.---as in the case of any co-morbid issues.
My Psychologist and Psychiatrist BOTH agree that I am not at risk for any addictions of any sort. They are always monitoring my intake and all around mental well being. They have seen the improvements in my life and how I am contributing to the life of others.
Medical Marijuana is NOT for everyone. But, for those like myself, it is a blessing.
These are just my thoughts based on my own experiences in the world of A.D.D..
Hope this helps some of you out
DSB
Are you a doctor? Marijuana does not always bring about lack of self motivation. I smoke pot when I am super stressed and can function better on the household things I have to get done. Marijuana works for me the way speed works for other people, especially when they start cleaning. I'm not saying I'm a lazy house keeper. I clean everyday, but there are times when I do not do the deep down clean that needs to be done. If I am high I feel like I need to be doing something so I do not just sit around. That is your opinion about laziness and lack of self motivation when it comes to individuals with ADHD and pot. People who are lazy sometimes have a problem with depression or straight up procrastionation, it does not have anything to do wit being high. They get high to escape everyday reality. I know many people who smoke and function very normally.