I have never found something so exact on describing how I feel at the moment. Although it's unfortunate, it's comforting to know you aren't the only person who feels like this.
I currently take 30 mgs of adderall daily.. and have done so for little over a year now. It really does help when it comes to school, but i'm beginning to feel like I can't remember who I am. I have become very moody and it seems I'm more mean than nice anymore. It's a constant battle to keep myself from snapping at people. I see this more so at the end of the day when my medicine wears off, but its become too regular. I do not want to feel like this anymore.
I'd really appreciate it if we could keep in touch somehow because I feel our situations are very similar. It's much easier to talk to someone about this who can relate. I'd also like to know if you ever started another medicine and how it's treating you.