Hey....I have some good news for you and for anyone else that may be following this.  I'm still on the same medications.  I take 20 mg adderall xr, 20 mg lexapro, and 12.5 mg ambien cr.  The good news is, shortly after I wrote my crazy-sounding message, I started eating breakfast.  I know...it sounds weird.  But seriously, I'm usually in such a hurry in the morning that I don't have time.  I wake up and I'm so hungry, then I take my meds and get ready for work, and then the hunger subsides so I forget to eat until lunch.  When I started making myself eat breakfast (and have 1 cup of coffee) a couple weeks ago, my moods started staying more stable.  I didn't have the "crash" feeling at the end of the day that I normally felt.  Or the paranoid thoughts that were constantly racing through my mind.  Then, last week, I started working out at the gym again.  I hadn't been there since September.  I have felt absolutely wonderful ever since. So my point is, I don't think the medication was the problem.  My doctor was right, I do need to be on it.  Maybe not forever, but at least for now.  What I learned though is this....being on medication does not mean you can blow off taking care of yourself in traditional ways, like eating regularly and exercising.  I never thought it would make such a difference, but it truly has.  I think that if I can keep up with this routine, I will eventually be able to ease off my medicatons.  My body/mind just needs to re-learn what it means to live a balanced lifestyle. I haven't done that, ever. I really hope that you try doing what I did.  Let me know how it goes.  : )