Please, definately tell your parents what you are going through and have them read this website to see some other people's experiences to help you make the decision if the medicine is helping or making you worse.  You sound like me - like you have ADD but you can deal with it and you are happier off your meds than on them.   You don't have to be on them if they are making you worse, it's not worth it.   Don't let the medication ruin your life.   After my brief experience on adderall, I don't think I would ever let a child in my life be on it.  I think parents who have never tried illegial drugs, and/or been on Adderall themsleves can't really understand what they are exposing their children to.  It's a major drug - not so different from street amphetamines.  Once you're an adult and have a better understanding of your emotions and how things affect you, you can try it and make a decision for yourself whether you're better off with it or without it, but I think if you're young you're not really equipped to deal with the side effects.  If you feel depressed or suicidal, please notify your parents, doctors and school counsellors right away.  It's scary how quickly those feelings can turn very serious.