im going thru the same thing everyday seems to get worse 4 years ago i started a cleaning bussiness to take pressure off myself i clean for other people then when i go home I dont yell at everyone and i dont feel bad about everything being perfect but my house is still clean that bothers me I want to be ok with a dirty house. People that I clean for that have a dirty house are always so much happier i envy them. I love making people happy by cleaning their house especially if i know they are torminted by it like i am. Even all this has not helped me. I cant clean out or organize my mind and its driving me crazy. I have three kids myself i dont want them 2 b like me.