Currently, I struggle every day with my ADD. I try to be positive, optimistic, and smile, but I feel s/w depressed. It has affected my job, family, friends, and everything. I really try and hide it from everyone, especially my children. My two sons and I all suffer from depression, anxiety, and more. I have a 15 year old son who just started high school and it's like watching myself grow up again. I know what he's going through and I can feel his pain. We often talk about our depression and anxiety and I give him advice on how to overcome the anxiety. I had severe panic attacks while growing up and I was often depressed. I lived on a farm and I would go for long walks and cry. I wanted to disappear! (The nice way to say it!) and I seriously thought about it at various times while in high school and in college. It surprises my how my parents seemed to never notice the real me. I don't blame them, we are who and what we are, and I fully understand we take what we have, be thankful for it, and move forward to make the best of things. My ADD is so severe, even medicated, I have a difficult time staying on task, remaing focused, planning, and more! I worked in mental health for several years and recently started a new career in marketing & sales. I need suggestions on how to stay on top of things, plan ahead, remain goal oriented and focused. I'm very good at marketing. I have came a long ways from being the extremely shy boy (voted most bashful in high school senior class) to being overly talkative, and not knowing when to cut it short while marketing. I have always had tons of thoughts going through my head at all times. Even now, I could go into a store and stay for hours doing nothing, and suddenly realize the entire day was gone. Is there anything a neurologist or other medical professionals could do as far as testing. I have seen the same psychistrist for years and I am happy with him. It just seems like my memory is slowly slipping away. My wife even comments on it from time to time. I mentioned before I had been tested for early alzheimer's disease about a year ago and the results were normal. That was very embarassing especially recently when I attend a network function and the guest speaker was one of the people who assisted the physician with testing me for alzheimer's disease. I knew ahead of time his name looked familiar, but it wasn't until I saw him that it all came flooding back. I need help, I want to be a better person in so many ways. I hurt inside b/c of this. Please let me know your thoughts and suggestions. The only good thing about having ADD is that I lose my concentration and as a result, I'm unable to cont. ponder & worry about life's stressful events like a normal person would!