rest and peace

 Hi gang,

 So I thought after placing mom things would ease a bit.. "there I go thinking again".  I find it hard to sleep still. I constantly think and worry about mom. Then there is my sister who still does'nt "get it".  I still deal with the legal bolony and bills and meds and and and...

 I visit when I can, she is two hours away and it is hard to get there at times.YUk.  The good part of all of this is that she adjusted well to her new "suite".  lol   She thinks she runs the place, even the kitchen. She looked out into the parking area one day when we were talking on the phone and freaked out when she saw a strange car. " Bill, I think I stole a car last night. Thats not mine in the driveway"   "Mom, thats a rental. Your car is in for repairs". whew got throught that one.

 I have talked to the activities director, who plays guitar for them and he is sending/emailing me a list of songs so I can play mine with him.. Sounds fun..

 My nephew sang the Star Spangled Banner after lunch one day and got a standing aplause!!  then he did his dance moves to the music.. He is a big hit.

 My sister is also a big hit there, she is very creative in finding ways to past time and she is funny as heck when she gets going. She knows them all by name and they love her.

 I have had some time to do some things but it is not the same.

 For Fathers day, I am going to my favorite lake and camp at a cove named quarter mile cove. We all race boats there and fathers day is the big day of the year. My mom loved boating and loved to go fast. Her favorite saying was,,,, "kick there ass"  then she would scream......   I want to take her there for a day??  she turns into a 81 year old teenager.

 At night I still find it lonely here. I wake up in the middle of the night and find myself checking in on her. I sit on the floor and cry, sometime I giggle thinking of all the different events that happened.

 All my friends called her Mom, she really has no clue who I am when I call her. It is depressing and painful for me. I find it hard to speak. I want to say so much and then BOOM............ I can't say anything.....  This really sucks.

 I continue with my support and recieve and give to all that I can. Many people have my email now and some have my phone number. I get calls and emails at alll hours and love it. People worry about the time sometimes but after say hello, time just doesnt matter anymore...

 Who would have ever thought how this cyber world would bring so many people in need of eachother together!  If only Bill Gates new what was in store for this wonderful gift..  I couldn't imagine all of this through a dial tone!  HOLY CRAP.. those people of yester year and the pain they went through to help guide us..

 I think we should have a AD cargivers day!   a national holiday and we should all get together in some LARGE open area and have the biggest BBQ ever. Finally we could meet and thank eachother for everything we do.....Guess I better start sending emails to our congress....