A flashback in time helped get me by..

By Diane W Saturday, April 11, 2009

Anybody that has had children knows that parenting is filled with little quirks. Being that I am now... "THE MOM" of my Mom...,  I find myself flashing back to the days when my own children did or said something very similar to what I hear from my Mom.  

 

When my son was about 4 years old, he told me he hated me and was going to run away because I was making him take a bath.   He asked me to help him pack. As we were packing his bag, he kept telling me he hated me with teary bursts of grunts and growls. I told him I understood how he felt, because some days, although I always loved him, I did not always like him.  I  left his room and moments later he appeared and asked, with bag in hand.. " Mommy, do you really not like me?".   I reached over and grabbed his arm and looking into his eyes... "Mommy does love and I like you. I don't always like what you do. Just like you don't always like what Mommy does.  But you still hate me, right?  He flew into my arms and told me he did not hate me, he just did not like what I did when I made him come inside to take a bath.  Needless to say.. we unpacked his bag.  Moments later he was playing in the tub.

 

Thursday, Mom announced she was going to pack her bag and leave, but she needed me to get her a suitcase and she needed me to help her pack. She would, also, need me to call someone and take her to that other persons (always nameless)  house. The reason?  Well,  "we just don't understand each other anymore and this  is just not working." Mind you, this  was in the middle of the night  (3:00 am) during one of her confused episodes when she felt fear and anger.  Mom has "Sundowner's"...so..I am a verrrrry light sleeper and listen carefully for her moving around at night.   I told Mom I loved her and would be very sad if she left. If, in the morning, she still wanted to leave...we would work out something else for her. I sat up in the chair all night guarding the door... just incase.. In the morning, she did not remember. We had breakfast and took our walk.

 

I called my son later that day. He told me he still loved me and but still hates baths. He loves showers. (-:

 

Plz excuse any written errors..I am very tired. Thx

 

Diane

Sharing some laughter...How about you?
4/11/09 11:38am

 I too go through the same moments as you. Mom hates me at one moment and loves me the next. My mom does not know I am her son any more. Hurts, but I need to be in her world to make it through the day.

 I talk with my kids as much as I can, both are in college and worry about dear ol dad... hehe    FINALY. LOL.

 

  I tried to place mom in a facility this week and at the last moment I found or they found me , a new facility that has only AD patients.  This place is un heard of, Mom qualified to get in and now I am in a paper race with hundreds of others. We have a good chance since I am one of hundreds that sent medical records befor contacting them.......

 

 I truly understand how tired you are. I/we all feel the same. I thought things were getting better until some dummy told me I was just getting use to it!! Holy Crap, I don't want this for me for you or anyone else..

Thanks for your post. Made me feel right at home...

4/12/09 3:07pm

My father-in-law does not know he is in his own house anymore unless we remind him everyday. Basically he does not notice it is his house anymore. He has lost the memory of the house as a whole although he may have some flashbacks at times.

When he thinks it is not his house, he would ask his lady friend or the home care nurse that we hired (she calls him often but she lives 2-hours drive away) to go away with him. He somehow thinks he is alone in this "community house" and some lady or couple should love him and take him home. Well the thing is he asked them in front of my husband - his younger son!! We have always been responsible for his welfare and he does not understand it anymore. He keeps thinking someone needs to take him home so he can be free of his dementia or AD. Once he asked if he can come with me! Well coming with me is to come with his own son!

The thing is we feel guilty that we are not able to take him home with us literally as we live in Canada and he has the best health care in Chicago. But we always look into his interests and make sure his property taxes and caregivers are paid for and etc. If he lives with us, he may still want to go away with some lady as he is lonely and wants female companion.

Anyway, it is not personal, I hope you understand by now that your Mom was just confused.... When she ordered you to pack, it must be due to her lack of understanding about why you care for her. Or she thought you did her wrong and there is a better place to go.

We just laugh about it and it is sad also. We just do the best we can. That is why we want to wait until he is less alert so he can accept the nursing home if he has to go there next year or later.

 

Take care,

Nina

 

4/12/09 3:42pm

Thanks for reading my post. Mom is living with me in my house. She often has confused moments in the middle of the night. I have come to expect it. I knew  that she would not remember her actions in the morning. I am always amazed at how much like a child she is. And in my post.. I was able to share some similarities from my son's actions at age 4 to hers at 82.  I am glad you read my post. I hope things  go well for you. Keep intouch!

Daine

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By Diane W— Last Modified: 10/26/11, First Published: 04/11/09