I hope I don't appear to be crazy. I'm not. I'm sure all of us have times in our lives where we hold these inner conversations. It just seems that I do so much more of it lately, and it always revolves around being nicer to those around me when I really feel I want to lash out and tell it like it is. I must admit, however, that I don't think I'm doing too good of a job hiding it. There are times that I answer my husband or talk with him in a way that he gets hurt. He "misinterprets" what I said - or does he? I hadn't meant it to come out the way it did or for my voice to have the intonation it had...really I didn't. But that voice of dementia sneaks out anyway. So, I guess I'm not hiding it all that well after all.

If anyone out there has any experiences with this, please let me know. I'm all ears and patiently (?) waiting.