My blog voice has been silent for the past two weeks due to emergencies and tragedy within my family. I will write at a later date about dealing with my granddaughter's newly diagnosed anorexia nervosa. Within this sharepost, I want to share with you what it has been like to lose...
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your brother
ninamarczynski
Saturday, June 07, 2008 at 12:18 PMre: your brother
Leah
Saturday, June 07, 2008 at 03:21 PMDear Nina,
I appreciate your words of condolence. I am getting on with life, though I do it through a wall of sadness. Even though I laugh and talk, my heart remains very heavy. It will take my family and me a long time to get over my brother's sudden death. We just keep thinking how lucky we were to have had him all of the sixty-five years we did. Sixty-five sounds OLD to most people...but, it's funny, when you are there...or almost there...you still feel like a young kid...not like an old person. It seems like a short period of time...and we always want more, don't we? Hope that makes sense!
Thanks for your comments. Your support is very dear to me.
God bless you.
Leah
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Sue
Sunday, June 08, 2008 at 04:10 PMHi Leah. All I can say is OH NO I am so sorry. My heart hurts for you and your family. But I know you are all faithful people and I pray you are getting some solace from know ing your dear brother is in Heaven watching out for all of you.
What an ordeal you must have had to endure. As I was reading you tell of how you were not recalling people during the wake, I was thinking that though at first it might have been embarrassing, it also seemed to be a bit of a gift - a coping mechanism that helped you get through such a painful experience.
I'll pray for your brother and your family. God Bless.
Sue
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Leah
Sunday, June 08, 2008 at 07:04 PMMy sincerest thanks, Sue, for your kindness. My family and I are faithful people. I am not holding any hate in my heart for the young man who made a mistake with his terrible decision to cross a highway while the sun was in his eyes, figuring nothing was coming. Unfortunately, we have heard that his only concern is that his car got banged up. Now, that attitude does anger me some, but I know it is not my place to judge him. I do not really know what is in his heart...he will have to answer to God for all his misdoings...I only hope that the law does enough to him that he might think twice about where his life is going...
You are a blessing to have as a reader and friend. Thank you, Sue.
Leah
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Hello Leah,
Caring kb
Thursday, June 12, 2008 at 05:33 PMI am saddened by this news in regards to your brother,Glenn.
You and your family are in my prayers.
God Bless You Sweet Lady
Kay
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Leah
Friday, June 13, 2008 at 05:54 AMDear Kay,
Please keep our family in your prayers. We have just gotten more devastating news... that my sister's nine year old grandson has an inoperable brain tumor which is of the fast growing nature. There seems to be almost no hope for survival. This second piece of horrific news has just sent me and our family into a tailspin. I welcome all prayers.
Thank you for your kindness.
Leah
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Anonymous
Friday, June 13, 2008 at 08:42 PMDear Leah and family,
I am so sorry. I wish you peace. Life is sometimes so uncontrollable.
Deep breathing is something we can control. And sometimes it helps slowdown
the crazy insane-ness of it all.
I do wish you peace.
Cathy
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Leah
Friday, June 13, 2008 at 11:28 PMHi, Cathy. I have used deep breathing in the past to help me through difficult situations--used it more than once in the classroom while I was teaching, you can bet. I do appreciate your condolences and your suggestion. I had forgotten how much deep breathing had helped me...I will try to begin using it again.
Thank you, Cathy.
Leah
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Thank you!
Spotted Dog
Saturday, June 14, 2008 at 01:47 PMDear Leah,
Thank you for sharing in such a time of grief. Please know that many have or will read your post sharing your recent tragedy. All will appreciate and share in your grief. We can not help but be touched by your raw emotions and want to tell you how much we grieve with you. We grieve for ourselves as we see ourself in you. What has happened in perhaps losing a brother, having Alz, diabetes, or perhaps we are a caregiver grieving. Seems like you touch all the bases.
I want to personally thank you because you said it all for me. The fact that you know what is happening to you and will continue to happen. I have not seen that for any of the early onset alzheimer's posters. It is exactly what I feel but no one seems to hear. I am newly diagnosed with Alzheimer's at 57 years of age. I am so frustrated because I have found so much out there for caregivers but not really much from my peers. Those walking in my shoes. You are a light in my darkness and I thank you.
Lynn ~ Spotted Dog
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Leah
Saturday, June 14, 2008 at 01:56 PMGod bless you, Lynn! You have touched my heart! I am honored to be able to share my thoughts and life with you and have you touch my life, too, through your comments. It helps me get through.
My family is now going through another tragedy. My eight year old nephew has just been diagnosed with an inoperable brain tumor. His folks are going with him to St. Jude's. He has little life expectancy: anytime from the near future to six months. We are just devastated that within three weeks, two of our loved ones have died or is going to die...through no fault of their own. I can't tell you the immensity of our pain.
Once again, God bless you. Please continue to read and comment. And, please, put our little Brogan in your prayers that God will receive him and comfort him and his family.
Leah
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Dear Leah,
I am so sorry that you lost your brother! You have my condolence.
When I just finished my chemo therapy for my cancer in 2001, my brother passed away in May 1, 2001. Just after I finished my treatment and came back home. So my hubby and I had to fly to Calif. again to attend the funeral. He was only 45 and no kids. His wife at that time is getting married this year again. You can imagine it is so hard for us in 2001. My parents were very sad naturally and they had to fly there also from their hometown in Asia. It was very hard for us. It took me at least 2 or 3 years to get back to normal in my mind about his death. He died of a car accident also - he hit a big tree head on in his new minivan (he was sick also). Before I flew there again, I was so sad and felt bad because I just talked to him that day in the hospital (I was in the hospital for my bowel obstruction due to an earlier surgery in 2000 for 4 days.) Then he died that night at 7pm Calif. time and I didn't know. I could have said something more or so... But you never know.
Pleases take care of yourself and maybe you can talk to some counselor about your grief. I talked to many people in my new local church and it helped.
Hope you will find a way to deal with it in peace!
Love,
Nina
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