I am really going after some new web clients again and making some progress feels great. The Prozac has officially begun controlling the serotonin in my brain. Yea! The Alzheimer's association and hospice has also checked in with us a few times and that is very nice. They suggested I ask for her help with things to get her more involved. After going on a walk with her and buying her chocolate cookies, she watched me garden and said flat out "NO" to helping me when I gave it a shot. The lady said it is human nature to want to help. I guess she is not totally the norm anymore. She does seem to understand me to a certain attempt. I do feel like she is watching my husband and I do things rather than wanting or beginning any independent project besides watching TV of course.

Sometimes she microwaves stuff ok but sometimes she presses the timer instead of start or sets it for 20.00 minutes, not two. I found an egg covered frying pans in the cupboard after weeks. I asked her to fill up the water purifier when it gets low and caught her filling the purifier with ... water from the purifier. That could take forever. It burns itself up if it stays below a certain line. She was in my car with me the other day and asked where my car was parked as we pulled up to the house.

Food is getting weird she often will eat ALL of something not thinking of her son and I. Sometimes she will pick food apart like eating all the cheese and walnuts out of a pre-made Trader Joes salad. I also cannot get out of the house alone easily without a plan. She even wanted to come to a two hour teacher training seminar with me this week and to any social outings I have planned. The last two days she has insisted on coming with me to the Bart to pick up my husband after work. Saying no once with an excuse is not effective because she will forget maybe and ask again in two minutes and or just head to the car with me. I still need to grow more patience and sustain the general feeling that we are ok.

My husband read that dementia patients begin to respond more to visual cues. After having about 10 around the house on various subjects I think they never soaked in and have not worked at all.
This morning after a week straight of her in my room early in the morning, humming, looking for something she lost or rummaging thru journals and paperwork. I just told her we are a married couple and like to wake up together, just the two of us. It took down the note my husband put on the door as well,

"DO NOT WAKE US UP ASKING FOR CIGAREETES, LOZENGES OR PATCHES. You get what you get when you need it. DO NOT COM IN: KNOCK: private this is our bedroom."

Thanks for the supportive comments on my last sharepost. That meant a lot to me.
It made me feel much more confident that I am really doing the best I can given considering the situation and how new to it we are. I feel so sorry for her when I say she cannot do anything or loose my cool in anyway.
Today I am starting a new yoga for web work trade will help me get more grounded. Thanks to all and God bless!