Well we finally got Legal Guardianship and a day later a Veterans Home (state nursing home for vets) decided to try us out.  God had a plan.  We took Dad there but we were not completely forthright about him staying.  He would not have gone.  They are not equipped to deal with people resistant to stay and almost did not admit him.  I begged.  They said they would but he might have to go to a psych ward at a VA Hospital until meds if he did not cooperate.  I prayed and prayed.  He never got violent but wanted to go home badly.  6 days later he still carries around the bag I packed him.  (of course he has more clothes we sent)  And they have not sent him to the VA hospital!  Praise God!!  We have to wait a few weeks to see him.  He won't take meds - but they sneak it in ice cream and applesauce.  Still feeling guilty some yet relieved.  I thought I would be happier right now he's safe and in a great place.  Did not expect to feel so guilty!  But doing ok overall.   thanks for your support - it means a lot.    sharon