Eileen, I feel so stuck. I have a tremendous fear of change, almost paralyzing. When I worked before in most jobs I felt some confidence. It's been 3 years since I have had a job or ANY confidence. My therapy has not helped me gain confidence. Just thinking about a job gives me so much anxiety. My dr has been saying I'm not ready to work. It's been 3 years and I ask myself, will I ever be ready. I have been on so many diff meds and combo of meds and still, I am on a constant roller coaster with my Bipolar. Dr says too unstable to work. I know she is right but I feel a duty to work. I also have a big fear. I am on Social Security disability. I'm afraid if I ignore everyone and try a job and I can't do it or last very long at it then I will loose or jeopardize my SS. I cant't live without it. I think about having a job often which in itself causes me anxiety. I don't want to keep living like this. I want to be a "normal" person. I'm tired of hoping that one day I can work.