I have been posting here for sometime now and I have probably written quite a few things about isolation. Today is not much different from any other day. Having Depression, anxiety and PTSD is very difficult to deal with,on top of that I have begun menopause so My moods are all over the place. Before the hormonal changes it was hard enough, but now I find I am more irritable, short tempered and even hostile at times. I stear clear of family most of the time for the simple reason that they will kick you while your down, there seems to be some enjoyment they get from my misery. In their defence though they don't understand, how could they . It is the lack of care or compassion they seem to display. One family member is always talking about the past, when I am trying to move forward, he also has depression and anxiety, but won't go for therapy only meds. In my opinion he prefers it this way so he can stay on disability.
The others self medicate with alcohol and pot. They all are quick to judge me when they are in complete denial of their own issues. Trying to be normal and put on my happy face mask is getting to be a real pain. I am very aware now of my out bursts and mood swings so I try to control it. While the whole time I feel my life is spiraling out of control, financially, and other wise. I keep to my self for the most part and wait til the end of the day to even go to the grocery store just to avoid a conflict with customers who are weekenders that feel they are the only ones who matter and that the world revolves around them, the inconsiderate behavior really irritates me..
I go to therapy I take my meds which make me groggy and rarely do I sleep thru the night. My mind is full of thoughts ,worry and uncertainty. I don't know what else
I can do...
Dewalt
Dewalt
It is always good to move forward, as long as that is your direction, and you don't continue to fall backward, then you are making progress. Sometimes, our families do not understand what we are going through, just as we do not always understand what they may be going through. Each of us must deal with our situation the best we can, we can't get caught up in what another person is doing or not doing.
It is important to surround ourselves with people that understand and do not judge us. It is great that you continue to post here, reaching out and sharing your story with other people that have anxiety. I think even when others do not post an answer, there is still much activity and your story is read by others. It may bring some help to their lives, knowing they are not alone and you can understand what they are going through.
Do you belong in a support group? You can look on the Anxiety Disorders Association of America site to see if there is a group in your area. Somewhere you can go and share experiences with a group of people that understand what you are going through.
Eileen
Eileen,
If one pwerson can gain any support from any ones post's here I feel I have a purpose in life ...to help others
Dewalt.17
Hi Eileen, I am older that menopause, but remember mental changes during that time.
Women have it harder than men, since our hormones are so complex. I am going through anxiety now and in a low place. Talk to other women and you will find that they do understand and give support. good luck and yes go forward there is no where else to go.