Friday, December 18, 2009
I have heard that God doesn't give you more then yu can handle. I have handled or managed a lot, most recently surviving a car crash, a break up and maybe it's just the holidays I don't have the answers. I wonder why did I survive the wreck, why even though my heart is broken it still beats. I try so hard to cope and make the best of the hand thats dealt me.
I continuously get two steps ahead only to be knocked down again, how many times am I to get back up and into the fight for my life.. My life in the last 9 years has been a roller coaster ride that isn't fun,exciting or thrilling. I am ready to get off and stop the fighting a losing battle. This will be my last post.
Dewalt
Dewalt,
You have been through a lot. So have I. Two long stays in the hospital but I remember communicating with you months ago. You live in the north and you hate the winter but like to paint and like birds. You said you had been to NC where I am from. I had left the site because of inactivity but am back now. It appears that you have been here all along. That doesn't sound like someone who really wants to quit our group. I hope you will stay and respond to this message.
Caring Person
I appreciate your kind words but I am done... Good luck to you and everyone on the site.
Dewalt
OK, but come back and visit sometime. Caring Person
I have read your last most recent post and I am very sorry for your chronic pain, having said that you must have a crystal ball to know I would reply. We all have our problems or issues I'm happy that you are still in the fight.
Dewalt,
I don't have a crystal ball but I am glad that you replied. I am having a good day today and believe we all can have good days if we keep up the fight. I mentioned months ago that I am writing an essay/story called " The Shelter ". I would like to put the first paragraph or two on a sharepost and would appreciate some candid comments. I am not a writer so I am open to critique. I hope you and anyone else will check it out and give me an opinion.
Thanks for your reply. Caring Person
I will be straight forward and to yhe point ...if you don't mind, Liviing in a world of depression and all the other ups and downs that go with it SUCK!!! plain and simple. In My case, I have a problem w/ pleasing people so they will accept me and like me, among other things I either cry @ the drop of a hat or snap in anger sometimes rage. I know where it comes from child hood, and thats all I will elaborate on that issue.
I go to my therapist regularly, I take my meds like a good little girl and yet I get into these dark and unforgiving places
Dewalt,
I read your reply from Sunday AM. I know that living with what you have to deal with can be tough. I hope today has been a better day for you. It has been a difficult one for me with my back pain, tension headache, etc. At 6:48PM I decided to take a tylenol and lie down for thirty minutes. The next thing I knew it was 9:30PM. It scares me when I find myself so tired and living takes the energy right out of me. I did play 2 hours of tennis today (with pain). I talked to a friend this evening and that has helped me relax some. I am open for any news you wish to share, good or bad. Good luck.
Caring Person
Thanks but am tired of hearing my own complaints
Dewalt