I have been on a wild ride these last two months. I have been inpatient, dropped by outpatient and told by my pdoc that its okay to "indulge" in my addiction once a day and "bored anxiety" is ever present.

I am NOT gving up.. that is not in my nature. I think sometimes when I am depressed  I want to "give up" but something always saves me.

I went to a new 12-step group last night. I got a lot out of it. I will continue on my path of recovery. I called a therapist who specializes in my addiction. I have an appointment in April. Tools all these things are tools to "fix the need"

Well the floor is done!! WOOO HOO!! I need to organize it today. The picture window in the puter room has to be replaced. I broke it months ago. Its a huge window and will cost a few bucks. The basement odor is gone. It must have been the duct work and furnance. I am glad that smell was....smelly!!

I need to close so that I can clean this room.

Take care everyone.

Ralph Waldo Emerson-"It was high counsel that I once heard given to a young person: Always do what you are afraid to do."

David