Margaret and I spent the better part of the morning at the crisis unit. I was feeling that same feeling when I got admitted in Feb. I was willing to go in but during the interview with Margaret it was discovered that I am still grieving Mike's death. The counselor was matter of fact and his candor was firm yet reassuring.

I am an overachiever. Margaret and the guy called it "Dave's plan to save the world". They were right. I have been stuffing my emotions by helping anyone at anytime and forgetting to help me. I did that because I was powerless to save my brother. At the ER I cried and they gave me the truth... I am taking on too much and I haven't fully dealt with Mike. After their words that feeling went away. Its gone for now. I have a call into a therapist who deals with grief issues. I never thought that grief had soo much power on the physical body. My shakes are grief!!

I wasn't admitted. That makes my record..8 discharges in 18 visits to the crisis unit.

I am grateful that I am able to receive such great support from my wife and the ER. It is a tool that should be used when needed. I needed it but not inpatient.

Ralph Waldo Emerson-"It was high counsel that I once heard given to a young person: Always do what you are afraid to do."

David