Yes, I want to be in a dialogue (I say that with a deep breath and a sigh). It's a weird feeling to get what you want but in a different form than you wanted. I want to be honest and not placate the whole thing into the ground. I desire to be a person who is open to others and their learning curve... I think I just need to acknowledge for myself that this requires some hard won lessons about life and what matters and how to share that with the sincerity I feel deep within me.

It is hard to have family be twelve years behind. I am looking for my gratitude, as it is starting to get lost in this scenario, and I do not want to lose sight of the fact that perhaps my own parents are in discovery of what this has all meant and means.

I will keep you posted. Any thoughts on this are very welcome.