I'm back now

By mark Tuesday, June 01, 2010

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Well I'm back now, I've been in a mental health facility against my will for a while because I tried to kill myself by over dosing on my meds. I almost suceeded in suicide, I came close to death. Now I have a different perspective on life. Suicide isn't an answer, you just end up hurting the people around you. You gota think about other people's feelings too and how their going to feel when your gone. My friends and my family were very worried and disapointed in me and I never want to do that to them again. I see there's more to life, I wouldn't missed out on a lot things if I were to die like talking to my parents or watching my friends kids grow up, I'm like an uncle to them and their like nefhews and nieces to me. They were pretty upset and I'll never do that to them ever again. I'll just have to learn to deal with my anxiety.

Buspar, the last drug I want to take

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Ivory

6/ 3/10 9:15am

Hi Mark, I'm glad you're back. I'm suffering from a little bit of anxiety brought on by going off of Wellbutrin and using Xanax to help. I don't think Xanax was a good idea, because I'm having problems from that or still the withdrawals of Wellbutrin I weaned off of in mid February. So it will be around 12 weeks without it.

Ivory

Eileen Bailey, Health Guide

6/ 3/10 8:43pm

Mark

I am so glad that you are feeling better and have gained a new perspective on life. I am sure, as much as it hurt, it was good for you to know how much the people in your life care about you.

It sounds like you have a good support system and can lean on your friends and family when you are feeling anxious. This is so important.

As a family member of someone who has attempted suicide on numerous occasions, I can tell you how difficult it is to go through from my side. Suicide isn't just about you, it impacts everyone around you and it is so hard, as a family member, to feel so helpless and not be able to stop the pain of someone you love. I also know, that no matter how hard, you never give up hoping your family member will feel better and every day you worry.

I am not telling you this to make you feel guilty, I just want you to know that someone else has been where you, and your family are. I wish all of you the best. Please know that I care.

I hope coming to this site, sharing your story, and helping others overcome their anxiety, can help you heal.

Eileen

Merely Me, Health Guide

6/ 5/10 11:00am

Hello Mark

How long have you been gone from this site? I began writing here some months ago. What you have written here is probably one of the most poignant things I have read in awhile. I wish that everyone who feels suicidal could read your message. I also write over on My Depression Connection. If you ever want to share your message there as well...it would be much appreciated.

How are you feeling now? Have you found any way to better manage your anxiety? We want to hear anything you have to share. I am so glad to hear that you are past feeling suicidal now.

Thanks so much for sharing your story...it means a lot.

mark

6/ 5/10 2:05pm

Merely me, Thanks for the comment. I was gone from this site for almost a year. I tried to kill myself on few different occasions and the last time I almost suceeded if it were not for my friend who called the cops on me. I don't remember anything from that nite, the next thing I remember is waking up in a hospital the next day with a butter fly iv in my hand and an oxygen thing hooked up to me and puking up charcole. the things I wrote were; Going down hill and why?, The stomach, just another bumpy road, People suck, just to name a few. Sorry for the long reply, I'm a freelance writer and I'm used to writing 800 word to 1,500 word articles.

I'm back now

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