What about feeling guilty when there is no logical reason for it? Guilt that keeps you up at night, makes you sick to your stomach, gives you panic attacks. Where could this possibly stem from? A responsible adult who tries to do the right thing but still can't breath at times from guilt and anxiety. Is there an explanation for this? Is there help for this?
Anxiety attacks can happen to anyone. Exercise is one other thing that you can do to improve your mental state. Exercise helps to increase the serotonin levels in your brain's chemistry. These serotonin levels enhance a sense of well-being. Finding an exercise routine and sticking to it will enable you to better your day-to-day anxiety levels. It will also help you to feel better about yourself and your body in general.
I have made a big mistake of cheating on my boyfriend. We just recently moved to GA from MI which resulted in my having a lot of time on my hands and him being always gone to work. I came here in search of a job and the frustration of not finding one, and my boyfriend always being at work made me fall into what I would call depression. Before I graduated, I was attending college full time, working 2 jobs and taking care of the house, so my plate was always full. Going from having such a busy schedule to a complete stop really messed me up. I wasn't happy at all, I wasn't getting as much affection from my boyfriend because he was always so tired, so I didn't know where to turn. I decided that I really needed a break so I left to Michigan for a week and a half. During that time all I could think about was my boyfriend, and what I really wanted and needed. I was still lonely, so I called a guy that I have been involved with on and off sexually since 2007. I seen him twice since I was in Detroit. One night he left to go get something to eat and I began crying because it dawned on me of how much my boyfriend really did love me and didn't do anything to hurt me. My boyfriend was there for me through this hard time of unemployment. When I came back, we both changed and learned to appreciate eachother much more, to show our love more and we got stronger.
But during this time, I have been fighting the guilt that I have for sleeping with the other man. I have anxiety and it seems like it has taken over my life. I still don't have a job so when I am home alone, I don't want to do anything, I don't want to go anywhere because my thoughts drown me and take over me. I am so worried of what could happen, healthwise, I am so worried of everything, i am so worried about this taking over my life. It's like I have completely lost it and I don't know what to do. Yes, i have made such a big mistake that I'd never do again, but how to I get over this?????
I think you should confront your boyfriend. i know you might think that he will not think of you the same way or he might leave you or get angry, but it will get rid of the guilt. if he loves you that much then he should be able to understand and forgive you, especially if you explain your side of the story and what you were going through at the time. he also might get angry and feel the need to be alone to cool off, so let him do so. then when he is ready to talk, talk to him. the best way to keep your relationship strong AND get rid of your guilt is to always tell the truth, but in love. try to tell him as delicately and sincerely how sorry you are and that you haven't and will not cheat ever again. then after all that is done, all you can do is hope for the best.