I used to be able to drive anywhere I wanted. I used to love to drive. Now I fear driving. I had an accident about 2 years ago. About 2 months after the accident, while driving on a long road trip with my boss, I had my first ever anxiety attack. I thought I was going to DIE!! I was dizzy, lightheaded, and I had a feeling of not being apart of this world. I had to stop at a gas station. I told my boss I needed to use the restroom. I was ashamed. Ever since I've had drivers anxiety. I've tried to look for "triggers". I seem to get anxiety when others are in the car with me. Although I've had it when I was alone as well. But it's mostly when others are with me. Now I should mention when driving with my wife and kid I don't get it. It's usually when driving with my boss, friends, etc. During these attacks talking with whomever is in the car with me is the worst thing ever!!! When they talk their voice seems to be so far away. If that makes any sense. It only serves to highlight my condition on my mind and bring on further anxiety. I takes all my power to blurt out a few grunts and growns in response. Then I get the feeling they know somethings wrong and the anxiety gets even worse!! It's a giant, out of control snowball crashing endlessly down a massive mountain. I taken to pulling on the skin under my chin as a way to stop the anxiety. This works a little but not completely. I want my old life back. My question is: What the He** is happening to me??!! How do I stop it?
Published On: January 05, 2008