Struggling

By Nicole Tuesday, October 21, 2008

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I feel like I am spinning. I don't know what else to do. It just always feels like there is a weight on my chest and I am always on edge. I have seeked help for this and am currently on vailum and Lamictal and it just doesnt seem to help. I have a beautiful life, a wonderful family but I am scared I am going to loose all that because of my moods. I dont want to be like this. They dont deserve it and I know that I am doing it when I do it and I still cant stop. I just wish I knew what was wrong with me. I just want this feeling to go away. Please help.

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Michel

10/21/08 4:21pm

Hello Nicole

When you say spinning I know exactly what you mean, as it been long since your feelling like this ? Did your Doctor just prescribe those meds or did he offer counselling ? I know how it feels to feel guilty but if I where you I would try not to be to hard on yourself, after all you did not ask this.

Do you have people you can talk to? Or a support group? ever been in therapy?

Suffolk

Nicole

10/22/08 7:36am

Dear Suffolk, Thank you so much for replying. I have been trying to deal with this since I was about 18 and I am 26 now. I have seen 2 doctors over this the first doctor I seen suggested that I talked to someone, which I did but I just didnt think it was helping any. She basically just listened and I know that is what they were there for but I just want someone to tell me what is wrong with me. I have been diagnosed bi polar but I feel it is more of a problem with my anxiety and that is why my moods are so screwed up because it just makes me so mad sometimes because I always feel on edge. The doctor I am seeing now has not suggested therapy he has just prescribed me medication. Nothing seems to help though, The valium seems to take the edge off for a while but he has me on 1 5mg pill of that a day and I dont think it is strong enough to do anything for me. I just wish the feeling would go away. It always feels like there is a weight on my chest, I always feel guilty but I have nothing to feel guilty about. i stress myself out about things that really arent even worth being stressed out about. I worry about things about the what ifs. I just dont know. It is just so aggrivating. How do you deal with your anxiety? Have you found anything that works? Thank you Nicole

Michel

10/22/08 12:40pm

Hello again Nicole

Ok listen up, I'm 52 years old and been dealing with anxiety for as far as I can remember...so I'm a expert...lol, no far from it but yes they are things to do for you to learn to live with it, I have said this in other post and its important that I repeat it, right now your stuck alone with your anxiety...we agree thats no good right ? So what is one suppose to do; I would strongly suggest a support group why you may ask...well there you will find people like you who are living the same things that you are, and not only will they listen but they will help you, finding a circle of people who will not judge you and know exactly where you are coming from is very beneficial, for one it will take a load off your familly as they cant gasp exactly your feelings, thats one thing.

Now your Doctor hummm...if you are bi-polar and the only medication he gave you is valium he shure the heck doesnt know anything about being bi-polar one of the most common meds for this condition is Lithium but again I'm no doctor.

Now if you can afford it therapy with a professional cant hurt for shure it can only help you in finding ''tools'' that you will cary with you, to better understand your condition...I cant believe your doctor havent told you about this, in the meantime you can go on this site www.asam.org just type in bi-polar in your search and see what you find.

Keep in touch

Be well

Suffolk

Nicole

10/22/08 3:26pm

Hey Suffolk, Thanks so much for the advice. Its nice to talk to someone who knows what I am feeling. And to clear things up on that bi polar thing.. I have been on Lithium before but I didnt like how it made me feel so I am now on Lamictal. My doc didnt just say im bi polar and not give me anything lol I just didnt like how the lithium made me feel so he switched my medicine. Anyways good talking to you. Nicole

Anonymous

3/11/09 1:46am

Start with Eckhart Tolle's "A New Earth", Wayne Dyer's "The Power of Intention", cds & maybe look into Landmark Education's first seminar thats a weekend long called the "Forum" then see where your heart, the universe, God, your inner spirit, etc leads you. You won't find it in a quick fix or a pill although they can help for a while while you create what really works. Its up to us so get started on anything like these & you will be lead on to further inspirations. You can't go wrong so don't over think it just try these new things. luv kelly :}

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