Ever wake up feeling more exhausted than you did when you went to sleep?  My anxiety was in overdrive last night and I don't think I got more than 15 minutes of continuous sleep all night.  Yet I was so tired.  My worries just kept repeating over and over and over.  I tried to just get up out of bed and just forget about sleeping, read a book or something, but I couldn't focus on anything.  It just made it worse in this case because that weird lonely feeling of being up in the wee hours of the morning just made me feel worse.

My anxiety has been in overdrive lately.  It is particularly disheartening because I have been doing so well.  I have been exercising every day, eating healthy, even got out and did some fun stuff with my family, getting ready for holidays.  and still, my anxiety has gotten worse and worse.  I haven't had an anxiety attack yet but I'm trying hard to ward it off as it normally leads to a more prolonged depression for me.

It is more than just general anxiety.  I have been having issues with several of my appliances breaking down seemingly at once, and I have no money to replace them.  My cat has been acting really strange and peeing everywhere.  It got to the point that I was losing sleep wondering how much pee I was gonna have to clean up the next morning.  Eventually had to lock him outside though I feel horrible about this cause he has always been an indoor cat and is very nervous about everything.  I will bring him to the vet to rule out any medical issues but of course that costs money.

Even just writing out my issues they seem somewhat trivial, and defenitely not the worst I've dealt with.  However, there is nothing relative about anx/dep, it always feels like the worst thing every time.