My first experience with panic was in 1979 when I was eightteen years old.I had an appointment with a photographer for my senior class pictures.I remember being a little nervous about what to wear and looking just right for the photos.When I got to the photographers studio I was a little nervous,but nothing excessive.While I was sittng in the waiting room I remember feeling like I just wanted to get up and run out of there.As I waited the room seemed to close in on me,my heart was beating rapidly it took everything I had not to get up and run out of there.During my photo session my heart continued to beat rapidly I was so nervous I could not smile because the corners of my mouth were twitching so bad.I managed to keep my composure through the session but it was terifying.To this day when I look at those pictures I see a terified young man.During my childhood years and high school years I really never experienced such excessive nervousness.I performed in front of people for Drama,Band and chorus and never felt terified.I dont know what triggered this first attack but it was one of many.My other attacks were quite similar usually triggered by high stress social situations.I suffered with this for so many years because I felt that if I went to a doctor I would be admitting I had a mental illness.I made it through most of those years using alcohol and avoiding any situations that might trigger an attack.Looking back now I wish I would have gone and talked to a doctor right after that first attack.Thank you for your interest, any advice you have will be welcomed.