I am 28 years old now, but when I was 13 I had sex with a 20 year old.  He had already gone to jail for messing with a minor, but I thought I was in love with him.  He was my first everything in my eyes sexually and mentally. 2 years later he called me from jail again.  This time he was going to prison.  I forgave him even after he cheated on me with at least 15 young girls.  That is all that came forward.  He spent 10 years in maximum prison and is now considered a sexual predator and registers.  His name and picture is on the net.  I was young and naive so I waited for him for 10 years.  I visited on weekends once I turned 18.  It is finally over now.  I got pregnant by him and he cheated on me and I lost the baby.  I know what he done was wrong now.  But now I am 28 and developed schizophrenia bi poler disorder in my late teens.  I was also in a very abusive relationship.  My mom got me away from him not willingly.  I was so naive.  I was 20 and he was 40 I met him at 18.  I also was addicted to drugs,but have been clean for 8 years.  I have also been diagnosed with depression.  I have a hard time sleeping or I sleep too much.   I don't trust men.  I was wondering if I needed to talk to a counselor.  It was so long ago, but now I am starting to wonder about it.  I never even told anyone because I did not want him to go to jail.