I have been unemployed for over a year and a half. It was very difficult finding something because of my age (even though I don't look 58). I had lost my last job due to the company being sold. My mother had died about 10 months prior to that. She had been in a nursing home five years and due to what goes on in homes visited very day to feed her, bring her laundry and just general love her. We were very close. Prior to her becoming ill I had just lost a job of fifteen years and when she became ill she was supposed to come home. We had always lived together and during the time she was ill I had no support from my siblings. I held a medical and legal power of attorney for my mother even though she had no money. The nursing home years were a nightmare. Everything I had hoped was not true about them was. I was put on an antidepressant when my blood pressure went up and I couldn't stop my mind from racing. After my mother died I had a hard time adjusting to not being a caregiver but started to get it together. I went off the antidepressant about 8 months ago and felt fine. Now even though I am staring a new job next week that offers everything I want and need I am extremely anxious and fearful. I wound up taking a 25mg amount of the antidepressant that I still kept. What the heck is going on? Right now I really have no one to lend support.