Oh hi Izzy!   It is good to see you.   Well first of all do take the time to be proud of this...it is a lot!  Secondly...this is not your mom's life...it is yours.  You need to think about you and what will make you happy.  If you don't take this chance you will forever be wondering...what if?  If you do fail...hey...you tried...you took that chance.    What does your gut say?  What does your heart say?  These two are generally not wrong when it comes to decisions.    Please let us know what you decide.  I know this is a huge decision.  We will support you in whatever you choose.  This is your life...nobody can live it for you.  What do you want to do?