So today was the day of my orientation I had been dreading for weeks. As I anticipated, I had a panic attack and I didn't go and I lost the job. Now, my mother is mad at me and I'm sure the news will be passed along to other family members and it always comes back as me being a failure or not wanting to work, which is NOT the case at all. I just wish they would understand. SAD is ruining my life and I'm almost ready to give up for good!




