Hi Wendy,   I know you are going through an extremely difficult time right now, but you do not have to go through your pain alone. Please find someone to talk to right away: a family member, a friend, a therapist, a member of your church or a doctor.  Talking about your situation will help you feel less overwhelmed. Dr. Walcutt has given you some very good advice in her answer.    While Healthcentral.com is not a crisis hotline and can not provide medical advice,  there are people and resources out there that can help you get through this. Online resources are helpful in giving you the information you need to ask all the right questions when you speak to your doctor.   Here are some links to resources that might be of some help to you. Hotline counselors are available 24 hours a day, seven days a week.  They will listen to you without judgment and can talk with you about everything you're going through.   The Boys and Girls Town National Hotline at 1-800-448-3000 1-800-273-TALK 1-800-SUICIDE  If you would like the help of a professional immediately, you can call 911, take yourself to the nearest emergency room, or Find a Therapist.   Support groups exist in many communities to help you get through this.  Try these organizations: NAMI (National Alliance on Mental Illness) DBSA (Depression and Bipolar Support Alliance) Befrienders Worldwide PsychCentral Support Groups   Please know that you are not totally alone out there. There are many member/readers here who have been where you are. Some folks might be walking the same road now. I'm always happy to hear from you and while I do not respond to every posting on this site, I do read them all. If you are having a particularly bad day, log in and tell us about it. Perhaps there is something in your situation that might help someone else, or you might benefit from reading what others have experienced. if you are having a good day, well log in and tell us about that too! It's all about sharing and caring.   Take care and please stay in touch and let us know how you are doing!Vicki M