Thank you for your time. I know from talking to lots of people their is no perfect answer. Nobody has done more "soul" searching then I have for 34 years. I'm a christain and that fullfills everything I need spiritually and that it one problem I had with therapy, they were always pushing some "new age" imagery or meditation which I needed either because my prayer life is what I use for that. The meds I personally think most do more harm then good. To get rid of one symtom anxiety you have to get 3-4 side effects from meds. To me that is not much of a trade. I think I'll just play it safe and either God will heal me or I'll live my life with anxiety. His way has no side effects but only benefits. That is how I've made it this far.