i have suffered anxiety an depression most of my life.being a man years ago i suffered in silence it was not the think to feel weak.when i got to 30 i new i needed help, so went to the docs this is 30 years ago when ativan was the drug of choise by many docs i was sensible with it a kept to the rules an found it helpful.then the time came when a lady doc told me i really needed anA.D so after lots of failed test runs prozac gave me back my life. it worked for a few years . then pooped.back to the ativan still sensible.after one bad bout of anxiety an dep, the doc ask if i would see a phyk at the hospital . i reluctantly agreed an this is were it goes wrong. i live in england your phys are free but you get what you get tha first guy was ok apart from canceling a lot of appointments the day before i was do to go.well he left the hospital an me i limbo no meds an no appointment.still i had my ativan lots of it.my next appointment with a new doc was 10 weeks. i freaked an hit the ativan an brandy hard to stay on the planet 10mg of ativan aday.went to see new hospital doc.stopped all my ativan in one go an put me on 125mg velafaxine. bad move by a crap doc .two days later overdosed i was in hell. put me in mental hospital gave me 225ven an just 8mg valium a day. i spent 8 hours every day on the shower floor letting the water let me no i was alive i got out after a week. an collapsted at home my gp came put me back on 8mg ativan levelled out in aweek. i am now down to 4mg of ativan an stable at that for a time my new problem is my new antidepressant has failed an i have to detox to start again i was on 120 cymbalta.let me tell you in mental hospital the cig breaks the guys an ladies smoked heroin an drank vodka from water bottles it was a zoo now im waiting to go back to try a new a.d WISH ME LUCK this time the out patients. manic666





