im 22 years old.
my case "as i see it" very simple .. but its really annoying me and i feel very bad.
im single , i have a very cool family , friends , work mates , educated ,my look is perfect which people tells me i should work as a model .. every one i meet/know LOVES me , i have no enemies , i didn't get into a single fight in my entire life , and im sure there is "0" person in this world hates me !
but there is something inside me drives me crazy which is : I WORRY all the time specially when i sit alone/go to smoke in the garden since my family don't like the cigarettes smell . and when i throw my self to bed thinking , i feel uncomfort inside and think about things which isn't true or no need to think about or doesn't exist at all , that's gonna make me crazy :( i have no troubles at work/home, i have nothing to worry about ...
as i remember this started when i was 20 years old .. i had a work and then left for college..
i was going to college 2 days a week .. so i was helping my dad in the supermarket when i had nothing to do .. but not that much ,
i was spending my time lets say "as i belive as a gamer and "lifeless" i was crazy about PC games ..
i was playing a very addictive game , i was playing it 8 hours and sometimes much more a day .. at that time , i didn't go with my friends out to have fun alot and not as i used to , i just went ignoring people all the time , the game was my life , and i was thinking of it also at work or when im with friend having fun i just couldn't get it out of my mind , and here im now , i don't play it any more , and i always go out and have fun .. but i feel there is something wrong inside me , I Worry 2much but there is nothing to worry about..
when i was 18-20 years old , i had alot alot alot of friends ..
when i used to walk in the streets or in my neighborhood i just was hearing people yelling " hey my friend " "come visit us" "my name" :X and 40% of them i don't really know personally lets say friends of friends of of of .... friends :X
after this 2 years i feel something changed in my relation with people , i feel that i lost something in my personality,lets say something like 10-20% which i dont know what is it or why , but its not the thing im worried of .
if i got over it "the game" why should i feel worried or something is wrong inside me ?
what could i do to stop it ?
in my life ? 1 thing which i really want . to stop it and feel okey/comfort and not worried all the time for nothing ..
here im writing and i feel worried , why ? i don't know ..
there must be something which makes me worry , and i cant know what is it because when i feel worried i dont think about special or specific thing.
i would be glad to hear suggestion from you to help me out , and tell me if u need more details which could help.
thanks and sorry for "bad english"