When I am manic I can write for hours at a time. I like to record my feelings, happenings, moods and things in the world that frustrate. For a while I thought that i could create a simple formula that would explain EVERYTHING in the world! I actually did develop a formula, which made perfect sense at the time. However, I read it now, and I have no... Read more
Whenever I go for therapy, I find it increasingly difficult to describe how I feel. Lately I have become a little annoyed at the question. How can you describe how you feel to someone when you have no "baseline" to work from? I am a rapid cycler, and I am up and down so often on most days that my mood changes like "daisies in the spring". I... Read more
So there I was today,
talking with my therapist, when she stops talking, looks me in the eye and says,
"I think you need to be hospitalized". Where the hell did that come from? I felt
the blood quickly flow out of my body (to where I don't have a clue) and, even
though I was sitting down, I felt like I could fall over. It wasn't that I was... Read more
What would you do?
A pastor enters into the ministry with a diagnosis of Bipolar Disorder, but doesn't reveal the diagnosis to the committee who hired him. (As a matter of fact, he actually disposed of the part of his medical review that covered his mental condition). He has been in the ministry nearly 12 years, after working in manufacturing... Read more
Being bipolar is hard; I think we can all agree. But I wouldn't want it to go away and, even if there was a cure, I wouldn't want it. For the first time in my life I know why I am the way I am. For years I went through life wondering why I did the things I did, all of the time just thinking that I was different. Well I was, and I am, and that... Read more