monotony of the days

By Intimid8r Saturday, August 20, 2011

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I'm wondering if i am the only one who experiences this almost like groundhog day thing. ever since i waws hypomanic, the days have been excurciatingly long and the motonony of them is enough to drive me insane. my mind is rarely stimulated sitting at home cleaning house and being a housewife . i want to spend money, go nice places all the time and do stupid things, at times. is there anyone else like this to any varying degrees? would love to know i'm not alone in this.

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Tabby

8/21/11 9:22am

just hate when I'm having a "high energy" spell and I'm wanting to get out and about, do things, run here and there, the creative juices are flowing and I want to make everything clean & colorful... my brain starving for some type of stimulation either visceral or educational... and there is literally monotony.

makes me agitated, irritated, more prone to lash out at folks

sort of like someone put a heavy steel lid down upon my uploading energy and it just rolls and boils under that lid

and I just itch with mad abandon to expel that uprising energy cause after a bit... it becomes quite mentally painful and I tend to come unraveled

and while all this is going on, in the back of me mind I have the unadulterated fear building because I know... I know... the next phase is blackened depression and the inability to get up, get out, and the want of something stimulating my brain... will be lost in the sludge and mire of depression

cathryne

8/23/11 7:57pm

Of course. Hourly. I support my son through college and everyone knows this story and it would bore anyone to death to have me repeat it here. So yesterday it was blazing hot here and I took myself out for ice cream, a treat I rarely allow myself. And my son bought me lunch with some of his saved school loan money. Then my boss woke me up with a text thinking I was at work and so I got up and went over to the one resturant that's open until midnigt and bought a nine doolar sandwich with potato salad. You get the picture.

I can't afford new clothes right now, or new clogs for work but I do treat myself once in a while.to keep the edginess from the hypomania at bay. Yeh, being a housewife for me was boring. I found my niche in foil fencing (I know, weird) and it keeps me active (Ive been at it 20 years) enough to keep the anxiety and edginess from hypomania from taking over my life. Walking helped eliminate the edginess too. But believe me when I say I've blown my share of paychecks and it never turns out well.

monotony of the days

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