Hate my Life

I'm sorry you are having a bad go of it nonethewiser

I'm very sorry and I hear ya... I do

this may not sound nice, but I am so glad to hear someone else dealing with the same issues - I just want to walk away from my life

Thanks everyone for your comments..and hope to hear more.  Yesterday was a really crappy day..but this doesn't change the way I feel everyday.  This morning was just alittle easier to get up and go on with life.  I know I usually always put a positive spin on everything...I was just so fustrated.  What made today any different...not a damn thing....but hey I guess I'm just not ready to crawl into the hole and cover myself up.  So I cleaned the bathroom (it was getting beyond dirty) by myself.  I cleaned the bedroom..again by myself.  Cooked dinner...by myself...Yet I'm not the only person living in this house.  I did go practice with the ladies on my billiards team...we have our first tourney on thursday.  Did I want to?.....no, I would have rathered stayed home and let the depression swallowed me up......I think it's going to be a very longggg winter, and I am going to have alot of problems with seasonal depression this year.

I'm tired of keeping all this bottled up...so if you don't mind I think I will be sharing my bitching sessions on here....just please don't let me influence your depression.  If I get to be such a downer....just tell me to KNOCK it off!!!  Love to all my family here on BipolarConnect!

You might want to stop feeling sorry for yourself!

Before you jump the gun...I take meds three times a day for bipolarism...have good and bad days (more good days with keeping busy)and have dealt with the illness for years on both sides of the coin.

I used to be the sad sack always focusing on my illness. Seemed that was all I wanted to talk about with family and friends and I was so wrapped up with my illness that I failed to ask how they were doing and they got tired of hearing me moan and grown all the time. I too expected others to at least know what I was going through...but how could they with never experiencing the illness first hand?

My grandfather used to say when you really feel you have it bad, just take a good look around and you will find someone much worse off still trying their best.

My secret? Stop focusing on myself and actually interested in others and what their going through, staying busy and falling into a heap at night, taking my medications as prescribed and talking with my pdoc when necessary and lastly....being thankful for what I have and making the best of it.

I'm sorry to hear you are feeling like I use to (just pretending and telling my family what "they" wanted to hear).  I just started taking meds for bipolar and yes it's tough to take but I know more people who have their lives back versus your circumstances.  You sound really depressed with no hope.

Have you spoken to your Dr. about this?  Have you honestly talked to the Lord.  You have to want this normal life and fight for it.  But, it is not just going to happen you have your own work to do as well and getting rid of the stinking thinking is hard but needs to happen.  The Power of Positive is was of the greatest books I have ever read and it is Bible based.  I don't know you but I will pray for you and your good mental health.

In Christ,

Susan