Swimming Through Molasses In Spite of the Demons

Hi MC,

Thanks for your comments.  'Cunning spirit,' ... will have to think about that one.  It's true that when I write, I challenge my intentions; it's almost like I have discussions with my 'self,' on paper.  Hey, why not?  We do it all the time in our heads.  It's kind of fun when you write it down as you can actually see the demons working away at you, each trying to have their way with you.  Kind of ****** them off when you see them, exposed.

I have a daily email that I write, which has really grown to include people from all over the world, which I call 'Daily Good Dog Feeding.'  Here is the story about how it came about.  I mention this because it reminds me of those two voices in my head ...

ABOUT 'Daily Good Dog Feedings' A friend shared a story with me about a meeting he once had with a Native American elder. This story had a great impact on me. The elder told my friend that his people believe that we all have, within us, a 'Good Dog' and a 'Bad Dog,' that are always fighting to be in control. My friend asked, "Which One Wins?" The elder simply replied, "The One That You Feed."

I started researching and sending out a daily inspirational message to my son as well as to reinforce the 'Good Dog' in me. Thinking my friends might find it of value, I added some people. Soon, it took on a life of it's own. This simple story, from my friend, has grown into something that has greatly improved the quality of my life and from what I hear, from people from all over the planet. What a blessing. Want to be added to the list? Email me ... uswalker3@hotmail.com

 ... You and anyone else reading my rantings are welcome to sign up.  Just send me an email.  Cancel any time, if you don't like it and I will NEVER sell it out with Ads or use the names.  Promise.  I just really love to share this with people.  It makes me feel great to do do something that I know makes life a little better place for others.  Kind of selfish, but hey, I'm human.

You know, MC, this email column that I write every day is one of those 'God Shots,' a powerful tool that I do every morning, and have for over a year now.  Even when I am suffering from extreme depression, which is usually the first few hours of each day, this mandatory self-requirement forces me to turn my minds attention around towards a positive 'Good Dog,' awareness of how I perceive the world.  It always helps me and if you can judge how it has taken on a life of it's own, spreading all over the planet, must help others as well.  I always use quotes that seem to address what issues I need to focus on.  Funny how that works; it's almost as if I do my part to sit down at my laptop and then God takes over and writes what He wants.  I am not claiming to have any inside connection with the Big Guy - it just seems that whenever I sit my *** down, ideas pop into my head.  I just have to type.  It's pretty much the same with my sculpture - I have to do my part and walk out into that cold studio when everything within mem is screaming NO ... and usually, within a short time, ideas pop into my head.  All I need do is allow my body to move around and put stuff together and evventually, VOILA ... something is created that was just a pile of stuff.  One things I have found for sure ... I have never written one word or created one piece of art, from under my blankets.  That is where my disease wants me to be - in bed, despising myself for my illness.  I say F______ the disease ... I got S____ to do!

God Bless Us All, We Deserve It.

Louie R (uswalker) http://rochonsculpture.artspan.com/mbr_bio.php

PSS... Hope you don't mind but I'm going to use this as a post for today on the 3 sites for mental illness that I belong to, as it really kind of addresses my head-location for this morning.