Hi, Tabby and Nonethewiser. All I can see is - me too.
To readers - here is the Psalm Tabby is referring to:
O LORD, the God who saves me,
day and night I cry out before you.
2 May my prayer come before you;
turn your ear to my cry.
3 For my soul is full of trouble
and my life draws near the grave. [c]
4 I am counted among those who go down to the pit;
I am like a man without strength.
5 I am set apart with the dead,
like the slain who lie in the grave,
whom you remember no more,
who are cut off from your care.
6 You have put me in the lowest pit,
in the darkest depths.
7 Your wrath lies heavily upon me;
you have overwhelmed me with all your waves.
Selah
8 You have taken from me my closest friends
and have made me repulsive to them.
I am confined and cannot escape;
9 my eyes are dim with grief.
I call to you, O LORD, every day;
I spread out my hands to you.
10 Do you show your wonders to the dead?
Do those who are dead rise up and praise you?
Selah
11 Is your love declared in the grave,
your faithfulness in Destruction [d] ?
12 Are your wonders known in the place of darkness,
or your righteous deeds in the land of oblivion?
13 But I cry to you for help, O LORD;
in the morning my prayer comes before you.
14 Why, O LORD, do you reject me
and hide your face from me?
15 From my youth I have been afflicted and close to death;
I have suffered your terrors and am in despair.
16 Your wrath has swept over me;
your terrors have destroyed me.
17 All day long they surround me like a flood;
they have completely engulfed me.
18 You have taken my companions and loved ones from me;
the darkness is my closest friend.
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I have had depressions like the psalm for sure, but I think as you stated, if thats what you meant, that would be heading to a super downswing for me...now medicated and learning much more my 'depressions' are more like a 'don't want to get out of bed, nap a good deal, gain weight, eat a good deal, crabby, reactive, cannot focus, looooots and loooots of guilt because I just don't fit the picture of what a wife and mother should be...and don't get the support I need having this daily disorder and the understanding it takes to pull me through the guilt...learning to do that myself.' And for some reason the world is all to unjust when I'm like this, I can't be the optomist I am used to being, I have flashbacks of my child hood and it mountains the guilt. (was that 15 sec?, don't say no I may feel guilty!)
Psalm 88