When God Seems to Turn His Back on Us ...

I know for sure, that the Power of God's Word in my life, and by His Grace I've kept functioning.

I'm weary all the time, have to fight going back to bed...you all know what I mean.

John remembers the time change and dark days of living on the East coast during the Winter months. I've been using my light box, but it's been grey and raining for several days now. arghhhh

I know the Lord is with me and that He will provide. It's just such a struggle every day.

Like this tension with the Tab meister is starting to get awkward, just thought I'd throw that out there...I'm thinkin everyone's opinion should be equally valued here (yea mine too, lol), and we are all deep feeling individuals as bipolar sufferers.  Minimal awkwardness might be a good idea...just a thought.

I think each and everyone of could go on to describe our own hell and there would be commonalities and of course there would also be our own unique experiences.

The title when god turns his back on us rand true for me years ago. That was my line of logic in that he had to have done this to allow the torture to continue. I had this growing hatred toward him for doing this. But as time went on, I found that he had not turned his back on me but just the opposite in that I had walked away from receiving any help from him.

I am far from a bible pumper, I don't go to church and I don't believe you need a medium like the pastor, cleric or pope to communicate with god. I say my prayers at night for everyone and each morning I wake up I say a special prayer to him for allowing me another day to spend with family and friends.

The biggest thing is that you need something or someone stronger than you that can handle the problems you may have going on in your life. I can remember spending so much time in bed unable to sleep because of the constant worrying about everything. Now I give it all up to him at night...get a good night sleep and know things I am better able to handle what comes at me.

I am not looking for god to handle everything, just the opposite a little helping hand from time to time. So many look to god to handle everything wrong in their lives while they sit there and either avoid or spend time running in the opposite direction.

If you are unhappy with the way things are in your life...change it. In regards to our illness, do whatever you have to to keep yourself well and tape into the gifts that come with it.