my partner verbally abuse me all the time....she always use my bipolar as a weapon for any fight and tells me how bad i am...then she says i have a manic episode when i dont...she is supose to be the love in my life and i cant tell her anything she always uses it against me in a fight! i cant handle this anymore this is really killing me and i dont know what to do because i love her so much and dont want to lose her...these days i only keep quite and take it because there is no use for fighting back because in everything i am always in the wrong....

when i am in a manic episode i can understand that anyone around me cant handle it but when i get out of it, it is amazing that i cant remember how i was....i am so meantally and fisically exsusted and then a week later when i do someting/any thing that she does not agree with i am manic....that makes me believe i am manic and i actually become manic...last night i went out with one of my work collegues because she needed to talk...

i was explaining something with my hands and 3 boxes about a emotional thing in live to get her to understand what i ment and that is manic now for her??? i mean i have come a long way with this sickness and that helped me a lot to communicate with people and be there when they need me...i have emotional intellgence...that is the beautiful wonder of this sickness...it is not all bad....

Please can somebody just share something with me or guide me or something because i sont know what to do anymore!!!